I’m being ridiculous.
“You did.” I smile shyly, knowing he did, can’t deny it really and stare at the desk instead, aware of both of their eyes eating into me now, and once again that overly heavy uneasiness comes over me. I jump when Alexi touches my shoulder to pull my attention to him.
“Mico is the one person I trust most in the world, besides you … and sometimes my idiot brother.” He jokes in afterthought. That soft, subtle hint of a smile, his voice husky and affectionate, so much depth and meaning in so few words. The way his pale eyes bore into mine as he says it sets my nerves tingling and heart hammering in my chest in a gooey, lovesick weirdo way that only adds to the blush spreading across my cheekbones.
“I’ll give you two some privacy. I need to go check on the men, anyway.” Mico shifts from his perch, hearing the change in Alexi and sensing the heaviness of the moment and gets up. He knows when two people need a few moments to have themselves something intimate. Leaving rapidly, which only makes me blush even more.
“Think you made him feel awkward.” I point out to Alexi, but he just leans in and cages me in by resting his palms on either side of my chair, so his face comes level with mine and I have no escape. This close it’s easy to completely lose yourself in that handsome face and alluring set of eyes. He smells edible, like always and that subtle aftershave he always wears surrounds me warmly. I stare at his mouth with that inevitable longing to be kissed, whenever he gets close.
“I think he could sense how much I wanted to do this.” Alexi moves in deliberately, using his nose to brush against mine and ignite a million sensations. He tilts his head as he angles to kiss me properly. This time slow and smooth as he finds my mouth, connects us faultlessly and teases my lips open with his. His hands automatically sliding into my hair behind my ears so he can gently hold me and holds himself in an awkward position to kiss me properly.
My hands move up to cradle his jawline, strong and defined although spiky with five o’clock shadow as I kiss him back. That rough grate against my skin, his face against mine which feels highly erotic. I move in to make it more passionate and use my tongue to trace his, as I too get lost in pressing us together as close as is humanly possible. That soft stomach fluttering slide of his against mine. Our mouths locked as he kisses the sense right out of me with a practised technique.
Alexi kisses in a way that suits me perfectly. As though we were always meant to do this to each other, synced by nature and moulded to be a snug fit. As I lose myself in the familiar feel and taste of him, surrendering every part of myself to the hot igniting passion that grows between us, I’m aware my underwear heats and my lady parts hint that maybe a service would be a good thing. That tense, yearning ache that comes on when you desperately want sex. Knees pressing together to combat my stomach tying itself in knots as my toes curl from his attention.
Sex is a no-go because of trust, but it doesn’t stop my body craving him every time he touches me. Our chemistry is still as strong as it’s always been and right now, I want to devour him whole. My temperature soars and skin prickles. Straight back to when I was fuelled by alcohol and my brain took a long break to dumbland.
He’s breaking me down with every day I get to experience this side of him, and the longing for sex is almost killing me with a fever of crazy horniness caused by this man. My body ups a gear so quickly, aching to feel him inside me again as memories of how well we fit together sends little explosions from my inner thighs up through my core and into my lower abdomen—just from a kiss. The first hints of how easily I would achieve an orgasm when this turned on. I don’t think it would take much.
Alexi slides his hands behind me, down to my waist to encircle me tightly and pulls me out of the chair and into the open space between his feet, pulling us back so he can straighten. He has his butt against the desk, sat slightly so I’m nearly his height like this. I end up cradled right against him, between his legs snugly, arms wrapped around me so he can continue to kiss me senseless. All while feeling every part of my body moulded to his hard, seductive form, like a full-on, every inch pressed together puzzle piece. He has the body of a god.
My blood is pumping fast, body on fire with desire as I wrap my arms around his neck and let go completely. Abandoning all reasoning in my lust-fuelled haze. Fingers trailing the collar of his T-shirt while being cradled tightly in his arms, pressed against that strong chest. They somehow find their way down his abdomen, squeezing between us and underneath his clothes to trace out a sculpted six pack and the waistband of his sweats. Tempted to pull them towards me and go fishing for what I want the most. Alexi’s hands move and slide down my curves, one hand to my thigh before he slides it up and under the hem of my dress and pulls me sharply to him so I can’t feel him out anymore, crushing my own hands flat between us. His other around my waist inching down to my arse.
Alexi finds it easily, the other hand following suit, smoothing his fingers down to cup both cheeks, gripping, pulling me hard against his groin with a little aggressive grasping that only makes me crave him more. His tongue caresses mine expertly, muffling my moans of pleasure. He has me feeling all kinds of sexy and desirable as he slides over my body and feels out every part of me with a raw hunger that is almost primal.
This man has me groaning, panting, writhing against his growing erection and we have to come up for air before I self-combust. I literally let him grope me senseless while investigating every inch of my mouth with his. Fever pitch heat emanating between us as we both break free to catch our breath.
Both struggling to inhale properly, we stay together breathlessly with nose tips touching and eyes locked intensely. He turns me, guiding my body in his usual domineering manner so I get butted against the desk instead. Eyes never leaving mine, inhaling each other’s air.
His hands slide to my thighs, push up my dress to pants level and he grips them and lifts me up, so my hands fly to his chest to steady myself. He perches my butt on the desk in a fluid motion and my feet dangle free of the floor, opening my knees to get as close as he can. He slides my dress further up my thighs, so it doesn’t restrict me, and exposes my underwear fully before he dives in again to kiss me dizzy. His obvious erection pushes against my scant lace underwear, which is throbbing with intense heat and I flinch with the contact, groaning under my breath at just how much it arouses me.
This time I have him between my thighs where he feels a little too good, and I swear if the fabric of our clothes were not a barrier right now, I would let him take me here and now. Such little willpower. I’m so wet my underwear is soaking through as we continue and part of me just wants him to take one of those hands and fondle so I can get a little relief. He isn’t venturing anywhere near though. Hands on my hips, tongue in my mouth, groin pressed hard against my pelvis, but he is behaving in a very gentlemanly manner concerning touching. Alexi is not angling for sex, just pushing me to the heights of horny because he can.
And he knows he can do it too. Always got to have his little kick of control.
I don’t want to stop though.
God, I want him to keep going, rip my knickers off and take me on the desk like a caveman. We both know Alexi is a sex god when that crazy aggressive desire is unleashed. I can almost taste how much I want it. He has me going crazy with desire. Pressing into him, hauling at him to get closer and biting his lip. Kissing him with a ravenous appetite, fingers trawling his neck and scalp. I get my knees up at his hips and press him to try and urge a little dry humping, wrapping my legs around him to try to pull him on top of me. Alexi just continues devouring me with sensual, hot kisses and his hands stay firmly where they are.
I want sex. I want sex. I want sex now, right here, this goddamn second, before I scream. Jesus, I SO WANT SEX!
And therein lies my fear. How willing I am to just let him take that final step back to sex and power over me and its insanely stupid. Like I’ve learned nothing from the past and have no desire to protect myself from history repeating itself. I’m so dumb sometimes. I have zero will to stop this, in fact, I don’t even try. Just kiss harder, deeper, run my hands down his front and massage his bulge to make it clear I want him to fuck me.
There’s a knock on the door and I pounce away from him guiltily, leaning back and creating distance, shame washing over me that I’m literally this weak anytime he gets those lips near mine and push him back as I struggle to the floor. Sense hitting hard, hands removed from his crotch while he grins at me for that last fondle and something deep inside of me yells curse words at my lack of willpower.
It’s not the most ladylike of efforts, but as reality slaps me around the head that thirty seconds more and I would have been on my knees sucking the hell out of him, goading him to let me screw him on the desk, it’s a sobering shake.
hear all my thoughts and he knows where we were heading,
“Come in.”
is flushing all over my body. Heart bursting out of my chest as though we just had a sex marathon all over the office and strangely antsy
I move away, sense tells me it is lust based rather than that he wants to slay me for dinner, and it doesn’t help me calm my frazzled nerves or sizzling libido in the slightest. I can’t help the rush of excitement at that little thought, he wants me as much as
with me later, to get rid of some of this pent-up crazy. A good few orgasms on my battery-operated fuck buddy should curb some of this insane craving.
like a guy who may start dry humping my leg
by his apologetic manner. It’s thick as city
then clears his throat, tenses his neck from side to side and looks at the man in a much more controlled way. Lack of getting further affecting him too, even if he wanted to act like it didn’t. It’s all over him now. That hostile sex starved manner of a man who got turned on
didn’t know if you wanted me to return it.” He holds up a fur capelet, dangling it like a dead animal in the suddenly deathly silent room and everything in me literally turns to ashes and falls around my feet in the most heart-stopping, brutal and crushing way.
man, eyes widening to huge proportions in gasping
“Your what?”
pain that hits me and bubbles forth, and the strained tone in my voice betraying the instant hurt. Like a stab
fucking woman, who
a complete and
cold water. All the reasons I kept telling myself to keep
on the club floor already showered and changed. He had a date … he
Oh, my God.
are meant to be dating. To hide the stench of a cheap whore on your
words. It’s all fucking shit, nothing but ashes in my mouth now as I realise; he hasn’t cared about pushing for sex because he’s still getting it elsewhere. It’s all just fake
all-consuming and I turn on him fiercely. Blinded to the fact
believed him when he said he loved me. Even when I told myself I didn’t … this is the proof that I did. This pain, this slicing my soul into tiny shards of sharp glass. The splintering of a heart
fucking WHAT? I hiss at him again, gritting my teeth to try to control the spiralling emotions I cannot contain. The hysteria of
in my life, and I wonder if this is how betrayal really feels when it’s someone you love. Unleashing the crazy in me as jealousy devours my soul and turns my heart to stone. It cuts deeper than anything he did before; because this time, I stupidly
concealing that he even gives a shit about my outburst. I no longer care about keeping us a secret, I couldn’t give a toss about appearances or who fucking knows about us right now. I’m so volcanic I want the whole world to hear me screaming at this tosspot. I’m physically clawing myself to stop
scurries off like a scared puppy, pulling the door behind him quickly; because he realises, he just started a shit storm in here. He may not know we are a ‘thing’, but he recognises a woman about to
with the click of the
bored tone and moves to put space between us, completely ignoring the red mist I have hovering over my head. My breathing is so insanely heavy I’m almost hyperventilating, and he just turns up the dial with
to me.
He betrayed me.
sound insane, my voice at dog whistle level and hoarse like I’m screeching even though I’m not. He just tenses, hostility overcoming him because I have learnt that you never question Alexi angrily. It enrages that inner psycho in him and puts him on the aggressive defensive even when he is in the wrong. That whole combative trigger of his that brings out his dickhead
fucking care right now; my
walks to the drinks cabinet and fusses with glasses to pour himself a drink, giving himself a focus that’s not me, and I wonder if this is his way of trying
fuck her? Before coming home to me.” It’s almost a wail, but enough venom that you really cannot tell if its rage or devastation. I’m trembling all over, legs weakening as my limbs start to sag. My eyes stinging with tears as they build up,
should have bloody known I could
at him. Lord of not communicating and shutting down on me, expecting me to just
fucking dare
kept it from me, you showered before coming near me. Why else would you do that if you hadn’t fucked her? So I wouldn’t smell her?” I’m losing the battle against my own tears and my eyes are filling with warm fluid, blurring my vision. My pulse feels like its throbbing through every inch of my skin. There’re horrible skin crawling tingles covering me from head
showered. Big fucking deal.” A shrug, a casual toss of a glance at me before he downs his drink and
wonder what it’s doing for him now? Calming, stopping
a liar. The only way you could stink of cheap perfume is by having physical contact with the whore wearing it. To think I actually believed you would not touch another woman … ha fucking ha! I should have known that the lack of pushing for sex was a sign you were getting it elsewhere.
sure everyone on this floor can hear me, and the angrier I get, the more controlled and calm he seems to get. Alexi is turning inwards. All that anger and hostility is being clung onto and pushed down to appear
Classic fucking Alexi.