Gloria had always been very reluctant in addressing him as Dad. She had always felt that they were not close, so she could not bring herself to say it. Even if she no longer hated him, she still was unable to do it.
However, when the dying old man really passed away, only then did Gloria suddenly realize that she no longer has a father anymore.
A father was something that she has always wanted all her life but has never gotten it. One day, when she had become incredibly strong herself, and no longer needed a father anymore, her father, who was gradually getting older, came to her instead. At that time, Gloria was caught off guard. She was not mentally prepared for it at all. She was feeling more of a resistance, discomfort, hate, and so on. In short, there was no love. She thought that she no longer needed a father anymore in her life. She truly no longer needed one. Her father appearing in front of her would only remind her of the endless pain. Therefore, she has never acknowledged him. Even though she no longer hated him anymore later on, she still could not bring herself to love him. She was very stubborn.
However, at that moment, her father truly had passed away. When Gloria realized he no longer would be standing by outside her door and watching her from afar, it suddenly hit her that she no longer has a father anymore. All the love and hatred disappeared along with the moment the old man's hand dropped. They no longer exist anymore. However, she also thoroughly became a daughter without a father anymore. In the future, nobody would be watching her from afar, caring for her safety, and calling out to her from afar," Gloria, it’s fine for me as long as I know that you're safe." Nobody would treat her like that anymore.
Gloria suddenly threw her head back and wailed. "Dad! Dad! Don't die! I want to call you Dad...I have agreed to call you Dad. I will no longer get angry at you anymore. Dad, come back alive, alright? Come back to the land of the living. Dad, you have not attended my dance competitions. Dad, you still haven't sat in a hall and watched me perform my own piano recital. I play the piano very, very well. Also, my paintings are just as good as my mother's. Dad, you still haven't celebrated my birthday with me before... Dad, don't die."
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