SAGE

Alora Trevino

It's been hard being myself lately but when has it never not. I feel like I'm screaming but no one is hearing me or are they just ignoring me.

It seems to be the case with me always. I seem to be always left in the background to be ignored.

But there's one person. A person who has never neglected me or overlooked my existence.

As I looked up from my car I saw it. I felt it.

This place, this house is where I felt most.

Maybe that's why I found myself coming here when I promised myself I would never again come here.

There was no turning back now. I had already knocked and I heard his voice.

The door flung opened and in all his glory Sage stood on the other side holding the door.

My breath hitched just breathing the same air as him. It always has. A cold and hot shiver coursed thought my body.

I watched as the emotion on his face changed. At first he looked annoyed then it tramsformed into something I couldn't process.

I don't know what expected from him because with him everything is uncertain.

"Alora." He breathed out and looked me up and down as if he didn't believe I was standing in front of him.

I honestly didn't believe I was standing in front of him too but I needed answers. I needed him.

"Hi." I smiled and waved like and idiot.

"Hi." He replied looked behind me.

"Can I come in?" I asked and cleared my throat.

It was a miracle I haven't shed a tear because I felt like throwing myself in his arms and crying.

Its been a while since I came around and it's funny how I always need alcohol to come here.

"Umm yeah. Come in." He said and stepped aside but I could see he wanted to ask what I was doing here.

Its not like the last time I saw him everything was joy and happiness.

Its weird how every moment between us ends with me crying and cussing him.

I always, always say I never want to see him again but here I am again. In his house.

I walked in and waited for him to close the door and lead the way.

He walked in front of me to the living room.

Its funny how everything seems to be different yet its still the same.

Even Sage is so different as still the same.

"I'm sorry for coming without calling." I bullshittted him. "I actually don't know why I even came. I just thought if you amd this house and next thing I know I'm driving towards here."

He just watched me ramble and didn't say a word.

The facade I've been trying to hold on too was crumbling way too quick.

"Umm.. I guess I could blame it on the alcohol but I didn't drink that much. The alcohol was just to give me the boost and confidence I needed to come here amd stand in front of you." I continued.

I looked everywhere besides his face.

"Funny huh!" I chuckled. "I received gifts today. I was invited to an exclusive. People sang happy birthday to me. Social media is buzzing with my day but all that didn't matter now did it. Only a simple happy birthday text at midnight mattered. Funny right."

I suddenly felt drunk more than I was a minute ago.

I stumbled just a bit and Sage was ready to catch me. I felt my heart soar though the sky when I saw that.

"I'm good." I waved a hand and pointed at the sofa. He was probably sitting in it before I arrived.

That exact sofa has seen a lot. It holds so much memory.

"Can I sit down? I'm gonna sit." I didn't wait for him to reply and by the looks of it he wasn't gonna try either.

He just stood there and turned with me as I walked towards the sofa and sat down.

"Would you say something?" I asked him. My voice went a bit higher than I had intended. "Your silence is driving me nuts."

I lifted my head towards him and he looked me straight in the eyes.

I held his stare but of course I ended up looking away.

I then heard him sigh heavily.

"What do you want me to say?" He replied at last. "You just showed up here."

His voice carried an emotion I couldn't describe.

"Why did you text me?" I finally asked. "All afternoon I kept thinking why would he text me? It's been a month and a half. Everyone was doing their things. You were now a dull ache in the background and all of a sudden you text me at midnight. I want to know why?"

I hate how desperate I sounded. But that's what I am. Desperate, desperate for him, for his attention. I am desperate.

He ran his hand through his black locks. The same one I've ran my hands through.

"If you can here expecting some out of this world confession I'm sorry because there isn't one." He started. "It's your birthday I texted you happy birthday. That's all."

"Bullshit." I called him out and he laughed.

"What did you expect Alora? A confession of my undying love for you?" He said and threw his hands up.

He made it look like that's not even possible and its ridiculous but to me its not.

Maybe that's exactly what I expected.

I opened my mouth but all the words I knew died in the back of my brain. I closed it and look away.

"Of coursed you did." I heard him say and I lifted my head. "Only you would think that after I told her countless time that I'm incapable of loving."

I felt a sharp pain in my chest. It was piercing and it almost felt physical.

"Bullshit." I called him out again. "Everyone is capable of love."

"You don't understand do you. I'm incapable of loving any girl that isn't Eve. I only love and live for her. No one else." He emphasised on every word.

I felt like the ground I was shaking and splitting into two.

Again Evernly is blocking and taking everything from me.

"That isn't true." My voice wobbled and a lump was growing in my throat.

"I can't give you what you want Alora. I've always told you that. Believe it or not. That's what it is." He stated and turned around turning his back on me. "And believe me when I say you don't love me."

He doesn't know. I love him. I've always have. I just didn't realise it back then.

I stood up and went to him. I grabbed his forearm and turned him around.

your back on me." A tear sled out of my eye.

He said

I've said it even when drunk. I know I do." I told

good for nothing fucking red head not me. It was never me remember." He raised his voice a

my

It was never him. What I felt for him is nothing compared to what I feel for you. It was never him.

true. Those time I told you you said It, I lied. You never told me that. I just wanted you to believe you did. Call me sadistic and maybe I

knocked the air out

at him. I've gone so long thinking I've

so naive? I always trust him and believe him

our eyes met he looked away ashamed and that was

whispered and

me. He watched me as I backed away from him. He didn't

he offered.

then asked

then I could understand. Maybe there's

sofa and I let myself go and sat

you some explanation that would make you feel better but I

look at me. He hurt me and he wouldn't look at

Tell me." I shouted angirly at him. "Be a fucking man and look

he lifted his head to meat my gaze.

going to him. That I want you all to myself. I'm selfish, sue me." He preached

only fueled my

do you want that if you can't even love me?" I asked

he doesn't deserve you. No one does." He

I am for

you know about what I deserve Sage. I deserve what I choose." I yelled at him even

to him with tears running down

I deserve you. Not that fucking Axel, not anyone but me."

and I sobbed. Everything he says doesn't

me yet I

derseves me

beside me on the

me cry even more. I sobbed in his chest and released everything I've been holding

hurts Sage." I told him. "You're hurting

I know." He said and hushed

do you hurt me

sorry Smurf." He brushed my hair and my back.

my eyes I'll be searching for you and think if all the hurt you've caused but when I wake I'd still want you. I wait

repeated those words he'd been saying

say something else. Something meaningful than his

ever think of me?"

do." He admitted and I

think

it does to me?" I asked

a lot."

felt satisfied that it hurts him too. Hearing about his

a little less and I didn't

stayed in Sage's chest a little longer because who know how long it would be until I get the chance

calm and alright I pulled away from

okay?" Sage asked

him a small

okay isn't fine

long time now

after all okay it

you know?" I

atmosphere was

why won't you?"

why I won't. One of them being he never give me

dressed in distraction. I never know if I should love you or myself." And that was the main reason why I

if I love him and I

a thin line and didn't

took his silence as a sign that our

stood up and his eyes followed me. I fixed

should go." I told him and when he didn't say

on my elbow and I allowed it to turn me around. I honestly didn't want to leave just

"Wait." Sage called out.

and

want cake?" He asked me

I guess I could cheat on my diet this one

He answered and his cheeks

get it because I doubt any stores are opened right now." I told him

I saw some supplies on the cabinets." He suggested and I

love with him.

I asked him and when he chuckled I knew

I happen to

mine. I thought and followed Sage who

runs through our blood." He

remind him that he is her

and sat on the barstool

the small

that just your baking skill."

You wound me." He said and searched the pages.

begin." I told him and

I can do it." He said. "Found one. Basic sponge cake. That's good right?" He asked

the better." I told him

confidence in me is insulting." He faked being

I'm doubting just your cooking skills or in this case your baking skills." I corrected

Let's make a bet." He proposed and I

is on. What kind of

a mean good cake you do

what do I

want." He

anything yet."

of something." He told me. "Now come

head back

can do baby." I crossed

now come help." He

won't help. You can fail alone."

not baking if you ain't helping." He

said and jumped down the barstool. "I'll help,

the book towards

eggs, butter, or oil." I read

Sage do all the work while I occasionally helped. He complained and asked me

afraid to put it in my mouth because I know there are some egg crusts

hours later the 'cake' was out of the oven and on top

close

minutes." He said and walked to

and feel like things were back to normal and when I leave tomorrow things will

before I came here. I will go back to

will be left will be memories. Memories

now I'm okay with that. Maybe Sage and I were never meant for the long

are in your life for a reason. Either to teach you a lesson

was one of those people who are