My Love My Hatred (Jennie and Lance) novel Chapter 53

Chapter 53 No, not at all 

I know very clearly that it‘s impossible for us to be together ever again. If I didn‘t gave my body to Lance, perhaps I would be jumping in excitement to hear Leo say that the child wasn’t his and that he divorced F 

But right now at this moment, the bitterness in my heart was threatening to drown me in sorrow 

My head was pressed against Leo‘s hoodie I clenched my hands into fists and hit his chest, he made me suffer through this! 

I cried Leo’s tears rolled down his cheeks too. I know deep in my heart what kind of person Leo is He‘s a very kind person. Lia told him she‘s pregnant with his child, he would never ask her to abort. He‘s not Lance, he‘s not so cruel. 

And it was because of his kindness that I was able to stay alive in this house. When I came into their family at the tender age of 5 years old, he was nearly 8 years old. I used to call him brother, and he would smile at me and pat my head, he would even let me play with his toys. 

In my heart, he is always the warm and kind boy. 

He actually knew that my mom and his father‘s affair sped up his mother‘s death, he doesn’t like my mom too, but he never blamed me like Lance. He treated me with love and care. He gave me protection, 

And it was because of this warmth and love, that made me willing to sacrifice my life for him if needed to.

Revenge? No, with him, the man I love so much, revenge is nothing to me. But my body was polluted, my soul and body were not clean anymore. I don‘t deserve this man anymore.

I cried for a long time in his arms, I wanted to stay in his embrace longer, but I knew I couldn’t

If this goes on, a storm would be waiting for me. 

I pushed Leo Mason away, but he didn‘t even move a muscle, he didn‘t want to let go of me.

Then, the door of my room was pushed open suddenly. 

It was Lance Mason.

He stood at the door and glared at us coldly: “Reminiscing? Hugging each other so tight that tears are even coming out?”  

Leo let go of me and wiped his tears. “Brother, you should knock.”

I lowered down my head, not daring to look at Lance’s face. He must be thinking of ways to beat me, to slap me and insult me.

But since Leo was here, he wouldn’t do that. I was pretty sure he would punish me in private when we are alone.

Leo looked back at me and touched my head. “Jennie, you are not feeling well. Go take a nap in my room, it‘s cold in your room.” 

Leo used to try not to be so obvious in front of Lance, he didn‘t dare to treat me so well in front of Lance, but Lance caught us in each other‘s arms, Leo must have thought there’s no point hiding anymore. 

I knew right at that moment, Lance wanted very badly to tear me apart. I wiped my tears and said: “It‘s fine, my covers are thick. You two brothers must have a lot to catch up, go then.” 

I signalled Leo to lead Lance out. Me and Leo have been very close for so many years, of course he got my signal. “Brother, let‘s talk outside. Don‘t disturb Jennie.” He said to Lance.

When they left, I sat down on my bed and sighed. What the hell was this? 

He came to me and sat beside me, touching my face. “After all that you‘ve been through, now I know what is most important to me. I used to overthink and that made you suffer. I will never let you be in pain ever again. I told brother that I love you, and I want to 

I pushed Leo’s hand on my face away and asked him coldly: “Are you crazy? Did you ask me if I want to? Did you even ask me if I‘m willing to be with you?” 

I knew I had to be harsh on him, and myself. I looked at his handsome face and answered him firmly: “No, not at all.”