My Fiancée Hates Me

I soon found myself on the ground with the vial spilled over by my side and Erik hovering over me with his entire body.

"Do you have to remember everything? Why can we not just continue living like this?" Erik asked with a pained expression.

"It would all be a lie in the end," I said coldly.

"...If not remembering is making you suffer either way, I will tell you the truth, so don't take suspicious drugs anymore," Erik said as he helped me up and sat me back on my bed.

"I want to hear all of it," I said.

"...I will start with the fact that we are no longer engaged. You went through with it when you requested to go through with it to my father. He always had a soft spot for you and the Duchess, so he readily agreed when you asked for the dissolution of our engagement," Erik said.

"You agreed?"

"Of course, I didn't," Erik said.

When Erik told me that I had left him because I had proclaimed that I was deeply in love with Garett. I could not believe it at first, but gradually felt that all of the pieces fit together despite still not remembering one thing about him from our second lives.

As I heard all of this, I could only think 'Wow, the other me was pretty wild'...

I must have had a crazy meter running to think of such a reason as to use Garett in my schemes. I had always thought that I had acted within rationality, but for me to do such a thing, I can only call myself a true deviant.

"In the past, I always knew that you had a special place for Garett in your heart," Erik said.

I felt my heart drop for a moment.

"...I never did anything disgraceful with him while I was married to you," I said.

my ears. Of course, I did not believe in them but had to find out Garett's true feelings. When I confronted him about his feelings, he told me honestly that he was sincerely in love with you but would not do anything that would dare hurt your reputation and left right before

"...Erik."

that I loved you, it always seemed as if you were parroting after

I have opened

Queen, many of my tutors told me that it was shameful to show emotion or cling to Erik, so I closed

Garett's corpse very well either. Against all advisory, you personally removed his head from the wooden stake

could remember the little details such as the lavender color of my dress that I wore that day, the heavy metallic scent of blood I

that I could not recall was Erik's face that

who refused to exchange Garett for the documents on Asmarian ancient weaponry, but you never blamed me and acted as if you were the one who let him die. It was not long after that

you mean?" I

a prime example. You also brought to light a number of corrupted Nobles

told me what had happened in the past, my memories of that time started

that he only protected me from that time I got kidnapped, but it turns out that he has been there for me and protecting me for a long time and that he held a bigger place in

everything too late. It was only until I lost him that a large hole opened in my heart. That marked the beginning of those long dark

cruel and ruthless because I felt a strong void in my heart. If only I did it all sooner, Garett and everyone else would not have had to

found it unpleasant that someone, much less a woman, was so competent and ruthless. Even my Advisors said that there was a chance that the Nobles would gather to put together rumors that could hurt your

"Is that why you..."

less looked at me even though I was your husband! During that loneliness, I wanted for you to look at me

was hurting then. All I wanted for you to do

again. I thought that you forgetting was a way for you

knew that I was hurting, but I was the person who

was pregnant, I truly was happy...That part is not a lie," I

Erik said as