Camp Closeted

"Milan, is that country music?" Benny tried not to laugh as we started to arrange the drinks and snacks on the array of tables.

"Yea!" He cheered as Benny snorted. "I secretly always wanted to try and live the American Dream, you know what I mean?"

Benny and I glanced at each other amused. "No sis, we don't know what the hell you mean." I couldn't help but laugh at Benny's response, making Milan speak again.

"Like I want to live in one of those super huge prairie houses and have a boyfriend that I can catch fish with." He dreamily looked up as Benny scrunched his face. "Then at night, we can lay down on a mattress that we set up at the back of his truck and watch the stars as we cuddle." He breathed.

"Huge prairie houses? You mean those old houses that slave masters used to live in back in the day?" Benny spoke as he kept his eyes at the table, making sure everything is ready.

"Yea!" Milan cheered as Benny and I rapidly turned towards him now. "I-I mean the style of the house of course, not for the fact that it's for slavery. Slavery was bad, I mean, slavery is still bad bu-" Benny quickly interrupted him.

"Milan chill, I get what you mean." Benny audibly tried to sound nice as he slowly turned towards me with a tilted head. "You planning to get fucked up tonight or you good?"

I tried to hide my smile as the country song continued to play in the background. "Is it bad that I kinda want to?" I bit my lip. "I mean, Jesse is gonna be with me the whole time so I should be alright, right?"

"Is Jesse gonna get fucked up too?" Benny asked.

"I honestly don't know." I slowly shook my head as I followed him out towards the pool.

"Hey Milan!" Benny exclaimed as my eyes caught sight of the gorgeously large and shimmering pool.

"Yea?" He exclaimed back from inside of the suite.

"Are you planning to let people swim tonight?" Benny looked up as he waited for a response.

"They can if they want to!" Milan responded loudly, a different country song now playing.

Benny quickly looked at me. "Milan's suite is gonna be so fucked up after the party tonight." He loudly cackled as he slowly clapped his hands. "I can't even imagine how bad it's gonna get."

"I know." I sighed as I looked back at the pool. "I don't really know how to feel yet. For some reason, I'm both scared and excited. I just don't want it to end up like the bonfire. I was so reckless and just really gross that night. It brought up so many problems for me and I don't ever want it to happen again."

"I can kinda relate." Benny shrugged as he pulled up his sleeves to quickly touch the water. "I just wanna end up hella trashy tonight. I know that sounds so bad and I know I'm 21 and gotta act my age, but I just don't give a single fuuuck!" He loudly let out, making me playfully roll my eyes.

"There's no bushes around here for you to wake up in." I dramatically let out as if it was the end of the world. "Who knows what might happen to you Benny?"

Benny just smiled. "Hopefully end up with Keanu rearranging these organs, ya feel?" My mouth rapidly dropped as we proceeded to explode out in complete laughter.

"You're too crazy!" I let out, Milan's voice coming up behind us.

"Guys, Cadence is here!" He bubbly announced as we all quickly went inside the suite again.

My mouth couldn't help but drop as I watched Cadence and Rama proceed to bring in huge plastic bags of the devil's lettuce closer to us. "Hey babes!" Cadence saluted. "Where's this lounge you're talking about Mil?"

He looked definitely livelier for some reason. His skin wasn't the usual pale as hints of pink now complimented his face and his chiseled arms through the shirt that he was wearing.

Milan kept his smile as the smell began to definitely roam around the suite. "Follow me guys!" He instructed.

Benny and I stood still as he just looked at me. "That is a whole another mess I'm not trying to deal with." He quickly got closer towards me with a serious look. "You told me you wasn't ever gonna do it again so don't be dumb tonight." He reminded.

I quickly nodded my head. "Y-yea, of course." I breathed as he moved back away. "I'm gonna be really responsible tonight, I promise!"

Music shook the walls of the suite as the sun began to set. There was already an overwhelmingly amount of people here and it's not even night time yet.

I breathed deeply as I waited for Jesse. He hasn't responded to any of my texts or calls and I was getting a bit worried if he was still gonna show up.

It's not like I'd be angry if he didn't show up or anything, I just wish he would at least text me on what he's planning to do.

Communication is important.

My body brushed against countless bodies of people as I walked my way towards Benny who was in a small group with Keanu, Andrew, and Leo.

"Micah!" Benny exclaimed through the music. "Where's Jesse?" He asked, smiling as he downed a shot.

"I don't know, he hasn't repli-" My eyes slightly widened as Benny interrupted me with a randomly loud laugh. "Replied yet." I inaudibly murmured underneath my breath as I just sighed.

Keanu offered me a shot as I quickly declined with my head. "You sure?" He asked.

"Yea." I nodded, looking around the huge groups of people I had no clue even existed.

Benny took full control of the music as it made some people start to dance. Each song passing made me realize how quick the sun diminished, making the night finally taking over.

There was all of a sudden a large influx of incredibly attractive guys, their eyes enticingly checking out some of the people brushing against them. They weirdly resembled a boy band a lot and I didn't know how to feel.

I felt like my ears we're going to pop as I just awkwardly sat next to Keanu and Benny, completely being third wheeled.

I glanced down at my phone to check if Jesse texted-nothing. I sighed, burying my phone back into my pocket.

"Micah!" I hear Benny exclaim beside me, moving over Keanu to make me hear him better. "It's a party and you look like a frail old woman who's going through menopause!"

I remained quiet as I looked down. He's right. What the hell am I even doing? Why am I sitting here being so depressed about nothing?

not a funeral!

smile. "I need a drink!"

go!" I quickly grabbed onto his hand as he smirked at Keanu. "We'll be

of people as a couple of eyes were following me for some reason.

my other hand was rapidly grabbed, making Benny turn back and see why

then landed on a guy I have never seen before in my life. "Wanna dance with me?" He cooed,

were a gorgeous hue of deep green. His face had a

pulling me away. "He's

close as he danced to himself. "You look like you know what you're

cheered as he handed

squinting at the potent taste of alcohol. "You're not

the second he stuffed his mouth with the bottle. "Here." He poured me more as

funny facial expressions as I began to speak. "I don't think Jesse is coming." I blurted

you?" Benny asked, putting the bottle momentarily away

"N-no." I bit.

that why you're

"Yea, little bit."

what!" I quietly laughed at him visibly getting more and more drunk as he plopped his arms down on the table. "Sometimes, men ain't shit and

right." I softly

asked through

right!" I

I let out a widened

the both of us

don't know how many shots, I seemed to struggle to talk

now too as I loudly gasped at him spilling the alcohol everywhere at the first few seconds of pouring. "Ooo

and the alcohol started

like everything around me was starting to move

I couldn't help but laugh. "Lets go!"

before I could've tried to get up, our attention was quickly stolen by a pair of two guys that were

as I watched Dallas effortlessly carry Milan over the counter and proceed to rock

Holy shit indeed..

look somewhat fun. Seeing Dallas so forceful and more commanding was like seeing a whole different side of him. He's

insanely hot out of

my arm again. "Micah stop

die if he

sound of music seemed as if it only got louder, if that was even

the other

Mushroom.

cute. They look like fat squishy umbrellas and umbrellas are kind people. They offer

I danced to the music as he swung against to almost everybody around him and he didn't care. This made me not care

pair of strong arms quickly wrapped around my waist, making me

tan skin was being beautifully complimented by the flashing lights as taking in his facial features made me

"You should take this." He whispered against my ear, his finger

a piece of paper." I couldn't help but laugh out loud as he pulled

feel happy as fuck, you'll love it." He smirked as the paper didn't really

fucked up. He probably thought he was giving me gum or something.

decided to entertain it anyways and chewed on the piece of paper. "Where's yours?" I asked, his hands going around

it." He bit his lip, my eyes closing.

genuinely happy and I couldn't explain my exact thoughts and emotions. Everything just slowly started to feel like everything I felt like I've been missing

dancing and feeling the music

my mind processed this, I kinda felt uncomfortable over the fact that an absolute stranger that doesn't even know my name just made me chew paper while touching

the music and the

mean not on sight.

do I say that Benny

yea, like

Benny has vanished!

being thrown against random waves of people as I tried to make my way out of skins that were caging me away from my freedom. I couldn't even think right anymore as the smell of alcohol, colognes, perfumes, food, and sweat mixed together in

deep breath as I finally reached a dimly lit hallway, my blurred eyes carefully scanning the people passing by me.

widened as they landed at Jesse, unexplainable happiness quickly spreading throughout my reckless body. "Hey! You're here!" He threw me a confused smirk as

incredibly blurred but I knew he looked gorgeous. "You have? That's quite odd, I don't

his muscular neck, our eyes meeting. "Your eyes are a lot deeper in color for some reason." I moved

He anxiously chuckled as I

trying to meet my lips against his but for some

me as he was forced to wrap his hands around my body since I was basically laying all of my weight against him now. "Yea no, you're very drunk, you need to go rest." Just before Jesse could've tried to pull me out the door, I immediately frowned, pulling back. "Micah, come

let out. "I-I wanna go upstairs tuh sleep!" I closed my eyes

don't you?" He asked softly against my ear as

I

as he helped me balance myself. "You're lucky I found you.

Jesse and I walked our way upstairs, we began to walk towards rooms to see if they were empty.

tall built guy with curly brown hair and a bare muscular

and for some reason, I wasn't really shocked

the door again as I crinkled my