Dear Beauty
I think I lost the number of times I have sat on this very mountain, with this very book, and pen writing to you. It's been months since I've seen you.
I admit for a while I was angry, hurting, I felt as if you betrayed me. Part of me still does. At least now I know why.
A few weeks after you left I didn't see an end to this hell I was in without you. The club was divided. Some wanted you dead, others wanted you safe. But time does heal.
At first, I couldn't breathe without a thought of you. My hate and anger were all focused on you in the day and my nights were spent mourning you, hoping you would come back.
Our new president River and Killer finally stepped forward and told us the truth of why you did what you did, they also told us about the deal your cousin made with us.
Why they didn't tell us sooner I wonder.
Falon tried to rekindle our relationship once I explained to her about you and I. But then I was adamant that I was a taken man, even if you did betray me.
I guess my wounds were still fresh. And well I guess one can't rekindle something that wasn't really there.
Before you she was what I knew, but the day I met you, you were more than just knowing, you showed me feelings. You brought out things in me that I left buried deep inside. I convinced myself that you were mine.
It took me leaving my family behind to see what you were always trying to tell me.
You were never mine. We were on borrowed time. You always knew that he'd find you.
of those chains you
who you were wasn't important but it
past, and I guess he became your
things, asking myself if you were here, how would I change things. If I could
before it even began. Even if
revenge, he wants you dead and I am sure wherever you
I don't
made a promise like
with another medal of honor for
conscience. And finally letting my feelings for you go. I'm
live life. When I got older I found out that life could be lived in different ways. And I am choosing to live mine without you playing a front row
and like all the women in our club, I will protect you as I would
you read this before you see me because I don't want you to be shocked when you see that I have moved on
met someone before I got stationed, she is really something.
her as soon as I get back. I also don't want to leave Kanla
always been a strong woman, if anybody deserves happiness
read this you would understand why I had to let
always be my beauty and
Zero
read the letter that arrived on my bed this morning. Every word is his own fuck up. I don't need emotion to
brother was actually letting her go. It didn't bother me one fucking bit, nothing ever