It was night again, when I wake up. Ever since Hayes left, the first thing I do when wake up, is go to my window. His car is always there though, in the exact same spot. It’s in the same spot now.
Seeing it, affects my day. Thankfully the day, was coming to an end.
I roam the house, and watch T.V downstairs. Emma and Jake are in his room.
I kept my phone close, for Jeff. I waited for a text, or call, but nothing.
I was obsessed with the mystery of Jeff. I wanted to know him more, to feel him more.
For the first time ever, I want to share my secrets. I want Jeff, to know my secrets, while he kisses me. I want to comb through his hair and watch him get better. Watch the green line grow shorter, and shorter every time our lips meet. I want to get better, with him.
My phone buzzes under my leg. I put down my bowl of ice cream, to answer it.
“Hello?” There’s static for a while. I’m on mute.
“Alex?” It’s Adam. I can hear music in the background.
He walks someplace else, and the music quiets. I eat a spoonful of ice cream.
“How are things?” He asks me. He sounds buzzed.
“They are good. What are you doing?” I ask. I scrunch my hair.
Adam rarely calls, but he calls more than you’d think. More than Jack.
We’ve all been through a lot, so when a sibling calls, we always an-swer. No matter what.
Adam sounds sad. I can hear him sigh through the phone.
“How’s Jake, where is he?” He asks.
I pick at my splinter, because I’m about to lie.
“He’s good. I think he went out.” I say.
I didn’t want to get stuck on Jake for too long. I had another secret about him, it was fresh. Talking about him, made me feel guilty.
“What are you doing?” I ask.
I hear him sigh through the phone again, this makes me nerv-ous.
“I’m worried about you Alex.” He says. He’s being weird. I laugh to cover my fear.
I bite down on my lips, when my eyes start to water.
“Adam, I’m fine. I promise.” I lie.
“What did you eat today?” He asks.
“I’m eating now.” I say.
“What did you eat today, Alex?” He asks me.
“I just had a salad.” I lie.
There’s silence through the phone again, I can’t breathe.
“Come on, you don’t believe me.” I laugh, because I’m scared.
I don’t like to talk about my habit. I don’t like when people start to notice my habit.
There’s static again, it’s calming. Adam is still muted. I bite down on my spoon, when I go for another scoop.
“Alex.” He’s whispers.
“Do you miss her too?” He asks.
“Every day, Adam.” I say.
There’s silence. He mutes me again.
what’s
He clears his
like shit right now.” He laughs.
at a
hear Adam cover his
drinking either.” I hear him laugh through the
I ache
“Alex, I don’t want to be
music is loud again. The static was louder. Chills coat my
like that.”
to be here. I just
me. I can feel his cold tears, through the static. I
Adam, I’ll leave right now.”
to get
boys are fucking dicks, Alex.”
static takes over the phone, again. It’s static for a while, be-fore the call
and text Rochelle for the first time in
to go to
-Alex
F*ck Yes!
-Rochelle
~~~~~
glossy, the walls are blue. Everything smells of anti-septic and rubbing alcohol.
stomach is turning. I
breaths as I hold Jake’s hands, and Ms. Kristen’s holding mine. Adam is behind
more steps, but I can’t take another step. I let go
staring at me. The pit was
hand,
okay, Alex.” He
Adam.” I
“Of what?” He laughs.
like me?”
out.” He
breath. I only step, in the squares on the tile floor. This calms me, the tiles make me
I breathe again
brother Jack, his girlfriend Rosa, and their newborn
Emily.”
are happy. I’ve never seen
happy, everyone was smiling, but me. I felt guilty again, because
months since my mother passed. At her funeral, something
was
crying!”
I know. Babies are your weakness.” He
everyone’s?” Asked Adam. His
a cry baby, lately.”
crying’s good for
rubs my back and hugs
wasn’t enough. I
like to
me, and the room
bathroom
don’t fall. I vomit
we were ready to leave. I couldn’t bare the secret that sat in my
in the bathroom, he closes the
corner of
aren’t the cleanest.” He
my wet face, I cried too much for any more to come
Alex, is it mom?” He
I lie at first, but
“I have a secret.”
looks at me, almost
in the ceiling hums, I get up, and my shoes squeak when
did something Jack, but
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