You Saved Me Once Book 1
Chapter 34: 18Our Parents Were Together
I wake up before Jeff, gasping for air. I had another nightmare.
It was of my mother.
It was her face, her voice, her tears, her cries, and her screams.
Now awake, I can still see her, when closing my eyes. It’s a cold, burning after-image, that won’t go away.
There was another dream though.
It was about Hayes.
This made me feel even worse, because I felt this before. I’m not supposed to feel this.
I look at the stain on my pants. I feel sticky, and dirty, again. I want to cry for dreaming about Hayes that way. I’m crying now.
But, I make sure to cry far away from Jeff.
I grab my bag from Rochelle’s room. I see both her and Hayes cuddled together on her bed, they were still sleeping. I watch for a while, until it makes me sad.
sun hasn’t risen yet, the air was cold, and the room was blue, quiet, and lonely.
go to
the bathroom. It warms
stuff them in my bag. I’m gross again,
am a
to close my eyes, too afraid to see the images of my mother. I’m too ashamed of what I’d dreamt
shower, I squat, when I want
I’m crying now.
wash away the tears. When the
hide this from everyone, even Rochelle. I’m going to cre-ate another secret and lie, to cover, a darker
the shower, but
for clothes. Each drawer I open in this bedroom, squeaks. Each squeak meant the drawer was empty.
I look at it, scrunching my hair. The pit in my
the room was too green
when I can’t find anything. I didn’t want to go back into Rochelle’s room. It hurt too much. I hate that I
lip and try
walks
“Are you okay?” He