You Saved Me Once Book 1
Chapter 23: 12I’ll Grow A Pit in My Stom-ach
Thankfully night came fast, and the party was starting soon.
Jake and Emma helped me decorate the house, they still cared about the aesthetics. They’re pretty cute.
We set up pastel lights all around the house. I don’t think it was a fire hazard.
The more lights, the better. We put them everywhere.
Next was locking the rooms that were off limits. Which consist of; my bedroom, Adams room, and the bedroom downstairs.
The bedroom downstairs is off limits for us too, but for different reasons. We don’t talk about it. It’s her room.
The bedrooms unlocked were the guest bedroom, which was our older brother’s Jack’s room, and Jake’s room.
Doing all of this without the help of Rochelle, or Hayes. They were next door doing, whatever.
I didn’t want to think about it.
When the party started up, they made their appearance. Along with a few other faces.
Adam’s girlfriend Lorene, and his college friends showed first. Then came the high school lacrosse team, which meant Jeff was attend-ing. It didn’t take long for the house to fill up.
Once the party started, the awkward silence faded.
I wander around, smile at people I don’t know, which is more fun, than it sounds.
Sometimes, I pull out my camera, or polaroid and take pictures. Or fiddle with the music playlist. This is at any party.
I enjoy parties on Friday nights. That’s when people’s true colors, show.
Hopefully, I can contain myself enough, so my true colors won’t show. Enough, so my secrets won’t spill out. Knowing everything that’s currently happening, I don’t think I’ll stay sober tonight, on any ac-counts.
Which in an about an hour, my true colors begin to show.
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I had way too many shots, and not enough snacks. I was on a high. A destructive one.
With my camera around my neck I bump into Jeff at the snack table.
“Hey Alex.” He smiles.
He looked cleaner than me. He had a water bottle in his hand.
“Oh hey. Jiff.” I sigh.
He smiles at me.
“Are you having fun?” He asks.
He puts his arm around me. I hug him, my flimsy jacket scratches his black t-shirt. He passes me a water bottle, it’s cold.
“Utter fun Jiff. Utter FUN!” I exhale.
I point to Jake and Emma in the corner of the room, going at it. I cover my mouth and laugh.
“You’re hard to figure out Alex.” He says.
“Me? I’m hard to figure out?” I slur.
“Yep. I kind of hate when people ask the question, that’s being answered.” He says.
He smiles before looking down. For a moment my high is gone, and I see Jeff clearer, both mentally and physically. He was really nice, like all around.
We talk a little, I go for seconds, Jeff stops me.
“You really think I’m cool “shit”?” I ask.
I nudge Jeff, covering my face seconds later at my own cringe.
“Not cool “shit”, but I think you’re fucking cool. No shit, just cool.” He says.
I shake my head at his terrible joke. He looks at me again, he won’t stop. I nudge him.
“Stop that.” I laugh. I make sure to annunciate as well as I can.
“Thank you.” I laugh.
“You’re not just talking to me because you want to have sex? Or be with me, because I’m innocent? I’m not, you know?” I state.
“No, Alex.” Jeff turns to me.
want to get to know you. I want something, re-al.”
tonight, starts to spiral me down a
of sleeping with the
“What?” He asks.
on Jeff, you’re a lacrosse player I see with girls all
drunk right now
“You’re stoned.” I laugh.
He
I wanted some-one to
you mad?” I whisper
strong acidic cold breath of
He laughs.
“Right.” I say.
going on with you?”
I can’t feel a thing.”
people have you
many.” He sighs. I should stop, but
had sex with Rochelle though,
“What?” He asks.
“Did you have sex with my best friend?”
question was not only for Jeff, but
leaving.”
want
you at school,
me
myself back to the main party. I rest myself against a wall, watching the scene pass
scene, play along. This was enough to quiet the butterflies I felt. That feeling meant, tears were
grab my camera and walk over to the downstairs bedroom that’s off limits. The high, numbed me
see two college kids
the fuck! Get the fuck out!” I yell, quickly shutting
make sure they not only leave the
down. When I’m off the wire,
okay?” Rochelle creeps behind me,
her fucking room!” I pull away from Rochelle,
can’t walk straight. I
need to slow down Alex.”
I laugh at his comment and ignore them both. They were pretty drunk themselves. This annoyed
to the drink table and pour myself an
fun. The music sucks. I think I’ll go and convince the DJ to play some
take
“Alex, I’m serious. I think you need to slow
spills the stuff out
the fuck!” I
don’t get to tell me, what to do! You’re not my family
care of yourself, or anyone anyways. Get the fuck
my cup back from him,
huh?!” He steps close
“What are you going to do Hayes? Date my best friend? Leave when you said you’d stay? Call me Little Richards, and
“Just leave me the fuck alone Hayes.” I
over to the DJ.
up to him, and kiss him on the lips. People around cheer, Rochelle laughs. The DJ gropes me,
Hayes grabs my arm. I pull away
want them to stop following me. I wanted my spinning vision, to exclude them in
life is ruined because of you. I hate you.”
stop walking. My nose starts
Shit
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Adam.”
it to the bathroom, I’m on edge of the countertop sink,
by the annoying knocking from Adam, and the obnoxious music, I was
stop, I get pissed, and open
Turns out it’s Hayes.
me to check on you.” Hayes grabs
ball at my face, and
wobble back onto the counter.
Adam, because he thought you’d burst into tears if I said it was me.” Hayes
fuck?” I
hands and
Probably should’ve told you
am sober.”
Beside a Sober Snail 5
too.” He laughs. Hayes’s
on the counter, Hayes cleans my bloody nose. When he’d take breaks to talk
still drunk, my colors