When Perfect Meets Crazy

Dinner ended up being ten minutes late. A whole six hundred seconds later than it was supposed to be. I was toast. Dead meat. A sitting duck. A dead man walking. It was my day to cook and with dinner being late, my mom had a legitimate reason to shout at me.

Not that she needed one to begin with.

My eyelids drifted shut as I exhaled noisily through my mouth. This was bad. Very bad. If it had been any other night, I might have gotten away with it but definitely not tonight. Not after she specifically requested that we come straight home after school. Not after our neighbor informed her of the time I arrived, a mere half hour before she herself did.

She wasn't going to see that I still arrived before she did. What she'd see was the fact that school let out hours ago and contrary to her order, I hadn't come straight home. Shit. Shit. Shit.

My mother, the Jessica Johnson, was going to be less than pleased.

The contents of my stomach plummeted. I could more or less smell her anger.

I shivered.

After working a huge case, getting home at late hours of the night and early hours of the morning, for the past two weeks -four, if you counted getting home by nine p.m. late-, the one day she got off early, I couldn't have dinner ready on time.

She wasn't just going to let that slide.

I drew in a deep breath, wriggled my shoulders and bent my neck one side, then the other like someone getting ready for a fight would.

Then, I called out, "Dinner's ready!"

A fun family dinner where we'd ask about her breakthrough on the case was nowhere to be found. Dinner was a tense strained affair where, as expected, my mother awarded me a beautifully worded lashing about how it wasn't too much to ask for me to come home straight from school just once -yes, let's conveniently forget that you ask this every time you get held up working a big case- and cook while simultaneously -and ironically- enjoying the spaghetti I, the ‘irresponsible and wilful’ daughter had prepared.

If I was so irresponsible, I definitely wouldn't have bothered cooking anything.

I kept that thought to myself though. I quite liked living and wasn't ready to say goodbye to it just yet.

I couldn’t anyway. I was too busy trying not to cry. Like an idiot.

"I'm sorry," I mumbled quietly, hating the tightness in my throat and the way my eyes were undoubtedly glistening with unshed tears. "I had to make a quick stop at the library."

"And it couldn't wait one day?" Her tone, the arc of her brows and her aura had me shrinking in my seat.

"I'm sorry." I squirmed.

I've always thought it was entirely unfair that parents have the ability to bring their kids to tears with only a few words or a mean look. It was even more unfair that my mom had mastered the art. Seriously, the woman could write a book; How To Bring Your Child To Tears In Ten Seconds. Tested and trusted. I wasn't a crier. Not by any stretch of imagination. I could count on one hand the things that could make me cry and still have spare fingers but at times like this, it felt like I was more sensitive to my parents because I wasn't to anything else. Like that somehow increased my sensitivity to parental disapproval.

Olly would never cry over simply being yelled at. She would hardly even blink but, unlike me, -and though she hated it- she was the type to cry over a sad movie, a dead pet, a sad goodbye. She cried a bucket over Five Feet Apart, Titanic and The Fault In Our Stars. I smiled at the first and laughed at the other two because I actually thought they were funny and stupid but now, with my eyes misting with tears, I'd have given anything to be the one who cried over movies and weathered through being yelled at.

at me. I hated that. It always made me look like such a cry

my mother continued, "it was one simple thing.

forced myself

chair with every scathing sentence that left our mom's mouth. Even my whispered "it's fine" and convincing albeit fake smile

the entire ordeal was short lived. I was finally on my way back to my room after hurriedly clearing the dishes. I had managed not to actually let tears fall throughout the dinner but if I had to listen to Olly apologize one more time, I knew with complete certainty I'd end up

should really be a rule never to say sorry to a person struggling not to cry. When in history has

betraying the façade of hauty indifference I had maintained throughout dinner. Luckily, Olly had

had I protected my sister, I also

has

the color of my room. I wanted it to be less grownup. I wanted bright colours like

made myself comfortable, pulling my knees up to my chin and wrapping my arms

growl escaped my lips as I wiped away another tear. And then another. And another until I had

Avy," I whispered, drawing in a shaky

my own question, I leaned out the window for a clearer view of the starry night sky. And thank God

from the window as if

the hell is he doing

had already harshly chewed me out for coming home late from 'an impromptu visit to the library'. I couldn't bring myself to imagine the hell and holy fire she would bring if she found out where I

would have to kiss my right to life

the bathroom I shared with my sister. It served as the demarcation between her room and mine,

lover of hot baths. Under normal circumstances, I would've come out as soon as the water ran cold

my dad who wasn't home yet- had already gone to bed and my skin was well into pruny territory. I wrapped a fluffy white towel around myself and made my way into the room, drying my

hours later, the thought was still as disgusting as ever. Maybe even more so. I

saw that guy again, there was a very strong

flicked the light switch on and splayed the hair towel on the towel hanger

was jarring enough to elicit a jolt of surprise from me and a sharp intake of breath,

I stared at him.

He stared right back.

the off-white ceiling, letting my

actually found my house and broken into my room. I couldn't be that unlucky. I really

my shoulders before letting my gaze drift back to

still lounging comfortably

I blinked.

He blinked.

There was an actual boy on my bed. Though my head ached and my vision was

had his legs stretched out, one hanging over the other in an all too casual pose, like he owned the place. Like this