Touching the Heart of Ace

I had decided. I had to move on. Not just emotionally but physically also. What if my being not physically attracted to Tristian was because I never tried?

??He?? was different. With him there was an underlying desire to always touch him, but he started it first. In guise of bad jokes and pats, he touched me and I let him because I loved it even before knowing what love was.

Then somewhere along the way we forgot to take back our hands from the other. I wanted that feeling again. I wanted that with Tristian.

I could do this.

If I could do that with ??him?? who was not mine, I could surely do that with my boyfriend.

There was something really troubling Tristian. His work was getting more boring day by day and he was vocal about it.

Poor guy!

I had been hinting I was ??ready??. But Tristian being the gentleman, was waiting for me to make a move, which I had no idea how to.

I thought kissing on lips was a tell-tale sign. Or cuddling to a slightly erotic movie was a sign.

How would I know? The only guy who I was ever with, was kind of in a perpetual need, all the time. I could not look into his eyes for three seconds before he pounced on me and...

This was not about him.

This was about Tristian and I.

My boyfriend and I.

So, I had to make a move.

Mom knew that I had someone in my life and his name was Tristian. Jason had met him once though they could not talk because Jason was here for business, and he could not stay for long without ??him?? being so suspicious.

At least the guy at the bar was not Robbie, because if it was him, he would have made some kind of move on me, right?

Right?

Right.

It was not him.

But...

No, not him.

I was not thinking about that anymore.

About Tristian.

I had to do this on my own terms. I sighed.

Tristian was calling and a smile was plastered on my face. He was so charming and knew how to put me on good mood. The only difference between him and Jason was, I kissed Tristian on lips.

??Hey.??

??Hi. I am sorry David. Can we skip on the dinner date today???

??Okay.?? I was disappointed. This was the first time I was taking him on a date. I ordered a bouquet for him when I went to pick him up. ??May I know why???

??The meeting is going nowhere and we cannot leave until some decision is made, I am getting frustrated.?? He sighed. ??I am sorry, are you sad???

??Only a bit because I cannot take you out. Some other time then. How about I cook something fancy and we can have a home-date? I will pick you at 8.30? That okay???

??Precious, I will come to your dorm right away. No need to run back and forth. I have to go now. Like I have told you already, you have done so much for me. See you.??

He hung up before I could insist.

go shopping

thought it was

pace we were going. I could pick few things up and since we were staying at home, it was right

up my mind on what to cook. Tristian liked... no, loved food. He would eat two portions of food easily, so I had to make something

going to supermarkets because they had

and kinds, with one Trojan.

had no idea how Tristian was downstairs. I

was working, there was no way I could face the

me with a straight face. ??I bought a dildo last week and she did not bat an eye, checked the product, gave me the free lube as advertised and billed it. Self-check-out is a mess, it would

gum and I was

Was I that obvious?

Dammit!

waited. I hoped the blush went away. I saw the lady staring at

through her eyes.

almost dropped everything

everywhere else except

??Anything else???

my card without looking again. She personally bagged everything and handed me

much. Really. Thank you.?? I told her again even though I refused to meet her eyes. She just saved my

could hear

face. Tristian better appreciate this, or I was going to

was only two months. Well, two months

so long. He was my comfort. I hoped it got extended to my dreams too. So

not put my finger on it, but something was not just

because Tristian was awfully silent? Or was it because he was only picking on his food? Was it because he did not smile when I handed

looked dejected, sad and... lonely? I was here. I should take his loneliness away the way he had

not like

we need

air and took a sip

was that time, right? Was

anything wrong??? I ignored him, I dreamt

you do anything

told him that my name was David Scott. To Tristian who cared for me like a man-in-love

you did nothing wrong. It is just...?? I waited

try to

You are perfect.

breaking up with ??perfect?? then? People do not let

He winced.

??It is not...??

??What is it, then???

we talk in the

leftovers, and I kicked the ??gift?? under the couch before he would notice. Of all the days, I could decide to make a move,

not breaking up with you because of anything you did. I swear

nodded. What else could I

heavens for not giving him the ??gift?? along with the bouquet. I

am precious, beautiful, smart, whole-package and I cook

sorry.?? He was so guilty.

??Spit it out.??

someone else.?? He

Of course. Of course!

Of course.

O fucking course!

I was

I nodded.

response. I nodded encouragingly. ??... before I met you. I thought he was off-limits.?? I nodded ??...

for

him go, but I cannot. I tried.?? He was