Too Beautiful for the Alpha

Chapter 21 Chapter 21

Both of the windows in my bedroom are open and the cool air floods in rapidly. Not bothering to keep myself warm, I sit on my bed in my pajamas, waiting for him. The room is dark. The only light is leaking from the bathroom, through the closed door. The Moon creates a glow in my room, all white objects now a hazy blue.

It makes me feel as if I'm dreaming, this glow, these hues. I hold onto my pillow, suffocating it in my arms as my eyes stay fixated on the middle window, the one right across from me. The forest looks like a black, stormy ocean during the night, and he emerges from it like the beast who lurks in its depths. My heart races as I wait for him.

The coldness cleanses me. My toes lose feeling and my lips turn blue, but I feel crisp, I feel fresh. The sounds of footsteps against grass bring my heart to a sudden halt, and I hardly feel a pulse from then on. I slowly stand, feeling my bed against the back of my thighs. He's here.

I close my eyes to calm myself, focusing on my deep breathes, but when I open them, he's in front of me. He stands like a warrior from another time, like a beast, like a man, like something in my dreams. I swallow and stay put, not hurrying to him. "It's freezing in here, Rae," he says, his voice crawling up my legs.

"You lied to me again," I tell him smoothly. "All you do is tell me lies."

James nears me.

"I spoke with Alpha Waters, so what's really going on? What did you lie about this time?"

"Rae, you have to listen to me," he says, reaching for my hands, but I bring them to my chest.

"I can't trust you. You won't let me trust you."

"I can explain."

I peer away from his face, wanting to feel strong again. "Why? Why did you lie about having issues with my pack?"

"I did it to keep you safe—"

I shake my head. "I can't do this anymore. I've given you so many chances, and you just throw them away. I look like an idiot now. I'm the girl who just keeps giving in. I'm pathetic because of you."

"I can explain," he says again.

"So now you'll tell the truth because you got caught? Why couldn't you just give me the truth before? Why is this so hard for you? How do I even know if what you're about to tell me is the truth?"

James looks distressed. "It was my father."

"You can't keep blaming this on your father. You're your own person—"

"No, my father came to my pack." I stay quiet, letting him speak. "A few days after you went home, he showed up out of nowhere. When I came to see you, and you wanted to come back, I couldn't let you because he was still there."

"Your Father is dead, James," I say, knowing that he lied about that too. "So he's not dead?"

James doesn't say anything.

"Why didn't you just tell me your father was back then? Why did you have to lie?"

knowing that he was still alive. I don't want you to worry about him, ever. He is a bad man, Rae. He does not know that you exist. I don't want him to. I wanted the both of you

doesn't know I exist?" I

"No," James says strongly.

a Mate? It's not because you still want to

because I don't want him to come near you. It's safest

about her?" I

"What do you mean?"

eyes. "Were you with her? Was she there? Is

brows furrow. "You

"How do you—"

few days

else to blame him for. I'm still upset that he lied to me about Alpha Waters, but he wasn't with her. Am I really going to fight with him over a lie that kept me safe? Does it bother me that

away. "Alright. If that's what you want,

few words to slip from my lips. "It—It wasn't that way," I explain calmly. "He thought our relationship was something more than

nods again. "My Father left this morning. I don't think

that I'm making another

I really am. I know it looks like mistake after mistake, but everything behind them has been genuine. I can't say that I know what I'm doing because I don't. I want you to be happy, Rae, that's all I know. I'm trying to get better at that; making you happy. I know you can't trust me, and I'm not asking you to. Whatever you decide, I will stand behind. I just

eyes drift away again, knowing that if I keep looking at him, I'll give in to something much more. What can I say? He lied to keep me from his father. He shouldn't have lied, but it wasn't because

been trying?"

But keeping someone safe and happy at the same time is more

His hand falls.

has been tossed away, hasn't it? I'm not going to tell him to reject me, but I need a test run. I need to proceed cautiously until I know what he's saying is the truth. I need

to take me

what you want, I'll

does one bad thing to me, I'll give up. I'm going to promise myself that. I'll go back to his pack to see if everything has been genuine as he says. Her, I'll talk with the hallway ghost as well, I think. Theresa and Gail also. And his Beta, Will. I have

to go back," I tell

nears me, sitting down beside me.

"Yes, I'm sure."

myself in a trance. Internally, I'm yelling at myself to not give in,

to need time

James nods.

nod. "I'm going to get some things together now. You can

brought a car this time. People know

"No sneaking away?"

father's gone, I'm not worried about causing suspicion. He's a smart man. He's not afraid

I take a deep breath, "get some

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