Their End, My Beginning
Chapter 22
Author’s Note: In this chapter is the summary of what Ryder felt from the time they first met after 3 years that is from chapter 4 after flashback. I hope it wont confuse you that is the reason why i wrote my note. Now you can continue.
*Ryder POV
The first time we met after 3 years, I heard a sweet voice shouting my name after a very long time, the heart I thought didn’t exist started to beat wildly, at first, I couldn’t believe it was she, the love of my life standing behind me. I could recognise that voice even if I am in a crowded place, I was that madly in love with her, but I can’t invite her into my messy life. The perfect life she was having will be gone the second she enters my life, and that was why I gave many cold looks and looked at her as if she was a stranger when she was nothing but that, and said those three hateful words ‘Who are you?” I didn’t know what went through my mind at that time, but the moment those words were said, I regretted it. I haven’t regretted anything as much as I regretted saying those words. I felt as if I drank some acid. My throat was burning, Christ, everything in me was burning with guilt and regret. I felt that the heart I thought was not there before I saw her was now dead. And I don’t think I could ever forgive myself for the pain I saw in those beautiful hazel eyes.
‘icy, cold-hearted, beast”. I knew my parents would not be proud of what I did back then to get to where I am today. Hell, I wouldn’t be surprised if they said ‘he is not my son’. When I saw those eyes of hers, that I wouldn’t mind looking
that someone was behind me, I had to grip the bench I was sitting on harder, that I knew that some wood splinter must have got into my palms.
had a doubt because she definitely was strong. The day I heard of my parents’ death I became a maniac drowning my pain in alcohol. I couldn’t even give a proper funeral for them it was Kat’s parents who did everything and I couldn’t be more thankful to them. I know that they tried to contact me, but I was so depressed that I didn’t want to be near them. I guess being lonely took a great toll on me, and I think that’s