The Silent Alpha

 ***Natalia*** 

We walk down the road in silence, several wolves paying respect to their Queen with a bow as they walk past us.

"Why do they bow to you?" I blurt out, wishing the earth would swallow me after the words leave my lips.

"Sorry, ignore me," I mutter, avoiding her gaze.

"It’s okay," she says.

"lam an Ivory Wolf, a special type of wolf that only exists every 150 years when a Silver and Gold Wolf are mated.You can think of me as a guardian for the werewolf race, gifted with many abilities to protect all of the children of the moon.Wolves sense my power and pay respect to me by bowing." I store this information although I did not fully understand what a gold wolf or silver wolf is.

Aurora chuckles to herself and I raise an eyebrow at her.Did she think I was stupid for asking such a question?

 "Not at all," she chuckles as we arrive at a beautiful garden, brimming with gorgeous flowers, trees full of fruit and water fountains carved from stone.

"I just think it’s funny that you don’t seem to know a lot about werewolves and yet you hate us all."

"I never said I hated werewolves," I retort defensively.

"No, but you thought it," she shrugs, making her way to a small “Many times, I might add."

"How could you know tha-"

"I read your mind," she sighs, swinging her short legs as she takes a deep breath.

"It’s one of my gifts.I’ve heard every thought you've had ever since you set foot in my office last night and while we had breakfast this morning.I’ve also seen all your memories, including those of your former pack."

My cheeks burn knowing I had thought many vile things last night about wolves, but it was not something I planned to apologize for.I did not ask to be brought here to live among wolves.I just wanted to live my life with my baby.

Why couldn’t anyone understand that? "I’m not asking you for an apology,"

Aurora sighs.

"In fact, I understand your fears and concerns.Trust me, I know exactly what pain you’re feeling-"

"You know what I’m feeling?" I scoff, crossing my arms over my chest.

"You don’t know a thing about me! I trusted your kind.I trusted my mate.I trusted my pack and they all turned their backs on me when I needed them the most.They shattered everything within me and the only reason I am still standing here today is because of my little boy.He is the only reason I get up every morning, working two jobs so I can give him everything he deserves! I’ve given him everything.Me! I did that! Not my mate! Not some pack! Not any wolf! Me!"

I scream, wiping the tears that had spilled onto my cheeks pain! You don’t know anything about me! You get to sit here and be happy with your mate.

You didn’t have to fight tooth and nail to prove your worth to your people! You didn’t have people waiting for you to fail, expecting you to crumble under all the pressure of being a human Luna.You weren’t rejected by your mate and made to feel like you were worthless!

My entire body trembles with rage.I want to kick myself from crying in front of a wolf and showing her just how truly broken I was.

The little Queen sits quietly in her seat, closing her eyes and inhaling the fresh summer air.

For a long time, she says nothing and I contemplate just leaving and taking Kota far away from here before she finally heaves a heavy sigh.

"I was almost 13," she whispers, her eyes still closed.

"I was almost 13 when I was accused of murdering my father." I stare blankly at her, not sure what to do with that information.

"The beatings started almost immediately when they found me with his body," she murmurs, fidgeting with her fingers in her lap.

"I never even had a chance to explain what happened. They all just turned on me..." Her voice trembles as she continues.

"My adoptive siblings, Mia and Salvador..." she pauses for a moment to catch her breath.

"T-they turned on me too...and for five years they...they beat me, tortured me in my sleep...shattered every space just trying to make it through the day."

When she finally looks up at me, there are tears in her eyes.

"My own mate didn’t even want me when we first met...Oliver, he...he rejected me." An uncomfortable smile curls on her lips.

"He didn’t want a murder for a Luna."

have forgiven him for hurting her

to work day in and day out until my bones hurt.I was not handed my crown, I fought for it, struggling against my own

to love you most.I know what it’s like to be betrayed and humiliated by your pack, by your family,

back, the ground trembling

life," she says softly after a

would not be where I am

Rosalie taught me strength.

myself and my body after years

and Gwen taught

faith in me

me unconditionally with all my flaws.He’s patient and gentle with me even when I can’t stand myself.He’s there

Packs aren’t all bad.

truly belong.I left

exclusive to

every relationship

a new pack, one made up of your

help out a young single mother struggling with her late shifts.All of them make up your pack.Zane and Agnes...they are just two rogues looking to be accepted by their new

slowly rises to her feet, taking a

step away, not wanting to

overnight.Like I said, I

that not all wolves are cruel." with pack

the words of another

me when I first arrived at River Moon," she sighs, wiping the bitter tears on

show you

I can respond, she flicks her wrist, a

a lake and several buildings in progress in

but I flinch away as I keep my

okay," she soothes, her kind eyes meeting

me through the portal and find myself in

looking around and taking in the new

area looks like a construction site, hundreds of wolves carrying

also a large group of women gathered

are in the

Lake, a pack

year, my allies and I were able to

Alpha now," Aurora

hurt anyone again. Take that

of misery into a sanctuary for those

the hardest: getting

been a rough couple

beaten and destroyed until all that was left was a shell of who

children with their

know how to read

all of them still have

these women, all thanks to a man who was supposed to

working on their breathing exercises with eyes closed.They look like little angels nestled on the

are cruel Alphas..."

not need to take on this burden.I have more than plenty of work handling River Moon and the kingdom, but these wolves..." her voice

turn my back on their

stomach for misjudging the

just I who is taking on this

been supportive with this train these women.The men you saw last

territory and assigning female trainers here so that my girls can learn to defend themselves and their pups.Luvia Blanca has given me access to their

I

nods, looking off in the

now to ensure the safety

I were

but I find the strongest people are the

as we watch the women complete

of the "Your majesty," a girl cries with a beaming smile on her lips as