SAGE

Sage Miller

Lately I've been missing a lot of firsts and fuck if that didn't piss me off.

I feel like such a fucking looser.

First it was the back to school party now this, the first game of the season. But that wasn't the only game I was gonna miss after all.

There's still one more game I won't play.

I sat on the bleachers and watched the team practice. Some looser was filling in my spot. Doing what I should be fucking doing.

He's also fucking horrible.

It's been a week of hell. A week since I got a damn fucking stupid punishment.

Of course I made sure to damage that fucker Nathan's arm, more than he said I did. If I wasn't gonna play so neither would he.

I got my revenge though it wasn't enough.

I was sick and tired of detention afternoon.

I looked at the bag that rested next to me on the bleachers. My eyes moved to the owner who was practicing on the sidelines on the pitch.

I held so much resentment for the girl I called my girlfriend. Of course this was her fault.

She just couldn't control her fucking hormones.

If she didn't go whoring around I wouldn't have had to enforce order to that fucker Nathan.

Everyone would be happy.

"I just realised something." Connor suddenly said coming towards me.

"What is it Connor?" I was really in no mood for his shit and I'm pretty sure he was probably about to say something stupid.

"I realised that fucking is that fucking word you can fucking put any fucking where in a fucking sentence and it will still make fucking sense." He snorted.

Like I said he was probably about to say something stupid.

I rolled my eyes.

"What are you talking about Connor?" I asked him and raised eyebrow in questioning.

"Your life is a fucking mess." He declared and I rolled my eyes.

I didn't deny that. My life had always been a fucking mess but most important I realised that I create most of those messes.

But right now, my life had no meaning.

"Your mouth is full of shit. You're useless." I deadpanned and continued to watch both the cheerleaders and football practice.

"Am I really though? I'm sitting with you here keeping you company while you're having a pity party." He pointed out.

"I didn't ask you didn't I?" I countered very bored.

I truly didn't feel like doing the back and forth with Connor. It always proves pointless.

"No you didn't but I'm your friend and I'll sit with you even when you don't deserve it." It was no secret how angry and bitter I've been all throughout the week.

I couldn't be blamed though. Who wouldn't be bitter if they've fallen from grace like I did.

Just a week ago I was everything but a week later I'm nothing. Completely nothing.

I realised that cheerleading practice was over.

Kate lifted her head to see if I was still there. She waved and her teammates teased her, gushing over me. As always.

She pointed fingers at them and said some shit, probably some dump shit threatening them.

They followed each other to the locker rooms to shower, I guess.

I waited as she went to take a shower and changed.

Few words were exchanged between me and her this week. I still very angry at her and I'd rather not talk to her at all but I have to admit.

In this school, she's the only thing going on for me right now and I can't deny how half the football team last over her and she's fucking mine.

Mine alone and I'll show her that.

All I've done this past week is pick her up and drop her off at her house only because I don't wanna be fooled again by her.

And because I have to keep up appearances. If anyone found out what she's did, I'll be a fucking laughing stock. No shit.

All they know is that Nathan was hitting on her and I beat the shit out of him.

Kate knows better that to say otherwise and so does Nathan.

"See you at the house Connor." I told him and stood up.

I picked Kate's bag.

late. I have to race tonight and I

and left him sitting on

Kate's bag on the passengers seat. I pushed my car back and leaned on it and closed my

doing a pity party

then I opened my

was right on

"All done." She said.

say anything or even looked at her. She

the car and backed out of the parking

to say

out of

was filling the car was the car engine

leaned back on the seat again. I

all I'll be out of

went by and I realise that Kate wasn't

sighed and mentally rolled my eyes. Typical

I deadpanned. "Just say whatever shit you wanna say and get the fuck out of my

didn't bother being gentle. I don't fucking know who she thinks she is bit she's

get the fuck out of my car before I forget she's

She sighed.

Sage. The silent treatment is frankly boring now." She said and

me a

say to you." I told her and raised an

are you? 3 years, grow up would you." She said and

a side glance and began tapping

are we still together then? I mean if we won't talk that is." She asked

and her eyes widened a bit

any guy I want in school right? And they'd be happy to be my boyfriend." She said with a

you seem to forget who

use to be co-captain. Why should I want to be

I knew she was lying. She has always wanted me. Even before I become co-captain or even before

want me." My blank expressionless facade was cracking

The anger was showing.

should date the new co-captain. After all

self control I

was now stranding her and my hands were

back so damn hard so

and deemed her worthless, she will be mine until I

then, she is mine to do as I

with no one else. I've done that with Alora and it fucking

surprised and tried to push me off but

were wide and full of fear. She tried backing away but she had no room

smart mouth of yours." I started tracing a

her head away but like I said. She had no

could understand. "For as long as I want and until then, you will not look at any other guy, you will not think of other guys. You will only have eyes for

around her neck but I didn't

someone else I will know. If you talk to some guy I will know. If you think of someone else,

"Please don't." She begged.

and pretended to add pressure and a tear fell out of her

it with my

pretty."

pretty as Smurf. I thought

clear or do I need to repeat myself?" I asked Kate and

at her lack

I immediately got back to

crease on my clothes. "Now get the fuck out of

got out of the car

sped up and left dust on my way and surely

I realised Sebastian's car was on my

behind Sebastian and

wasn't uncommon for him to

here after my detention ended but today I

and found it unlock like

to the kitchen and got

it opened and drank the water while going

sitting on the sofa, his legs were on

you early today." I commented and sat

he offered before he went back to

they have a game tonight and every time the team has a

the back of the sofa and enjoyed the peaceful silence.

he knows when silence is needed. Actually,

Connor, all you do is talk

Sebastian's company more. He doesn't fucking pry on my business or ask

I want with him with no problem but

really unsettling because

with me today?" So

out a humorless

putting

I asked him getting

get vexed

he's been having a fucking attitude towards me these days. Ever since

but I'll always

choked Kate."