SAGE
Chapter 31: She's a mess
Sage Miller
The days went by so fast that I felt like I blink and it was suddenly Eve's birthday.
I've been complaining about how my summer plans got altered that I focused on the negative sides only.
Yes, this isn't how I planned to spend my summer but I wouldn't have it any other way.
The weather the last couple of days has been shitty to say the least. The skies were dark and it was pouring rain.
It hasn't rain much this summer so it paid us with six days of rain.
Then today, the rain stopped. The sun freed itself from the chains of the heavens and blessed us with its rays.
Today wasn't only Eve's birthday but is was also the fifth anniversary of Aunt Lauren's Death.
Grandma tried to hide her pain bit she couldn't. How could you celebrate a birthday on your daughter's death anniversary.
Eve and Grandma aren't on good terms right now. They haven't been since she came for a visit.
Grandma isn't as understanding as Andrew or Micheal. She doesn't understand why Eve won't visit Aunt Lauren today or it she didn't understand yesterday when she down right refused to visit dad yesterday.
It's hard being stuck between both of them. In the end I chose Eve, I'll always choose her.
Grandma is family but I've known her for two minutes while I've been with Eve since the beginning. She has her reasons to not what to visit dad.
They don't understand. They don't understand her, not like I do. They don't know her like I do.
Grandma only gave me a disappointed look and hasn't said a thing since then.
That was 24 hours ago.
"How is she anyway?" Styles asked.
I had forgotten I was hanging out with him till Eve's birthday later tonight
"Ummm... she's Eve man. She's complicated as hell. Most of all she's self destructing so bad. I don't even know what to do or if I can even do anything." I told him honestly.
I've made peace with him asking little information about Eve and I always give him what he wants.
"I really want to blame you for her self destructive ways. That would be so easy but I can't. It was inevitable. I wish I didn't know that but I do. I know she was headed that way anyway, whether you came along or not. It was a matter if time."
I could hear the pain, the desperation, the agony in my own voice.
I was desperate.
Shouldn't I be happy today? Isn't birthdays suppose to the happiest day in everyone's life? Yet here I am. Miserable. In pain.
"What can I do to help?" His question didn't surprise me at all. I'm surprised he didn't tell me he wanted to see her.
"At this point I don't know. If anyone tries to help she'll fall faster. At least this way it's a slow process you know. I'm just hoping she snaps out of it before it's too late." I told him. "I'm also afraid seeing you will set her off. Then she'll fall faster."
He nodded like he agreed with me but I know he didn't. I can easily read people and he isn't any different.
His eyes tell me he doesn't agree at all. He wants to see her. I've manage to keep him away but for how long.
I know they're inevitable. They'll fall back to each other again.
I leaned further against my car. Styles had gone all bad boy today. He rode his bike and wore black jeans, black combat boots, a black tee and obvious a black leather jacket.
Not like he'd ever wear any other color.
I don't understand his obsession with the color really. Eve use to say black isn't a color until he met him and suddenly she liked black.
"Can you do me a favor?" He suddenly asked me.
"Yeah sure." I said.
"Can I give you something to give to her?" I immediately opened my mouth to deny. "No, it doesn't have any note."
"I don't know Styles." I said slowly.
"It's just chocolates. She'll never know it came from me." He said convincing me.
"I swear Styles if you fuck-" He made it a point to cut me off.
"Just take it. I didn't even write my name on it." He said shoving the wrapped box to me.
I examined it slowly. It did look like a box of chocolate. I think. But with Styles you'll never know really.
Sure enough it doesn't have a name or note. The box is empty.
But with Styles you'll never know really.
I'm sure he can fit a car in his pocket. Maybe that's a bit too much but you know what I mean.
"Fine." I groaned and opened my door and shoving it in the glovebox.
"I don't think she'll eat chocolate that came from just anyone. She's picky with what she eats." I told him closing the door.
"I know. That's why I'm giving them to you to give to her." He smirked.
"Smart." I muttered.
smart."
and I said
can't hang out with tomorrow. I've got plans."
flatter yourself too much. I wasn't gonna hang with you tomorrow. I do have friends you know." He said
with
saying he's gonna hang with them
always tell you everything
though popped in my head. It was weird as shit and even creepy that I
cussed once today. Hell, you don't cuss as much." I
thing. Thank her if it's a good thing. Since I
wait for my response before he speeds off
few..." I trailed off when he's about 20 feet from
bad he didn't stop you from being an asshole. I bit his head
I was
car and looked
in there."
looked over my shoulder to
Eve are inside giving orders. It's chaos. Mom just wants to make this exactly how
many birthdays. She
like twins
it. I thought I was the only one." He threw his hands all over the
decoration one
found Eve's choice of favourite colors weird as hell. For as long as I
black into the mix. Her bedroom walls are now black and
but I never saw the different. That was
when did this combination of colors started. It started exactly
combination aren't common but she makes
black and pink. It's not as weird as it
other color for
chance. The past couple of days Grandma was here, she
different from now on. I'll be expensive, from my car to my clothes. I'll be the it boy at
the white house can organise. I dare
90% of these people in
heart-stopping speech. I was given
the spotlight. I didn't like the one
speech. Grandma even gave one and cussed
wander why dad didn't cuss with a mother like
how any
so many presents and yet she only
got her
a bitter protests,
Eve has three
given her my present
with the people but the people I could tolerate were
leave and get some fresh air. The house
were there anyway. So I was
admit it but I was bored. Those people has some sticks
got bored with those fuckers."
around and saw grandma
not used to suck parties." Besides I haven't had an ounce
you know." She said to me and she
what?" I asked
they have something stuck up their asses. I
and laughed. Trust Grandma to put her foot
said
down and we sat in silence. She reminded me more of dad but she wasn't anything like
these past few days, Grandma and I have shared stories about dad. We've talked so
Mike as a father?" She suddenly
My lips tugged up.
lying. He rolled around in the floor with us
likes to ask about dad a lot. I knew more questioned
ever talked about. I wasn't
about us. What did he tell you?"
her, I've always been able to read people easy so when
written all over her face. I see her grief,
not knowing where they were or
to when Eve and I would ask dad about our grandparents. He never
older I guess I assumed that you were dead." Her sharp breath told me I was insensitive so I back tracked. "But he always told us how much you'd love us. He told us stories about you and
small sad smile. I smiled in
weird that you don't
body
a mother to us. She was supposed to be my mother." I
She asked and I immediately froze. "You keep saying was. You talk about her in the past.
answer to that question is simple. I know it but only I
blank and my tongue refused to
That
much?" I've never told grandma
she was a bitch and she didn't like her either so she
have no idea." No body does. No one has any idea
to kill her. I ignore my own
got you this." It shouldn't surprise me that she bought me yet another