Rejected Mate and Following Fate

"Radar is our Papi. Every pack has a mentor who's mature. He's older than all of us, mid-thirties. He went to war as part of the Luna's guard. That scar on his face, he got by protecting her with his life, and it almost ended him. God damn silver and wolfsbane, I shudder to think. He's always been a slave to Sierra and never mated because his heart lies with her, devoted, and loyal. It's kinda sad, to be that crushed on someone that even in her absence you still pine them." Meadow is hushed, but the torn tone of real empathy drags through her voice, a hint of real pain for her pack mate.

"They had an affair?" I gasp, my head spinning on that point alone, and I can't help but staring back at Radar in the people before us, seeing him in a whole new light. He's not exactly ugly or unattractive. That scar is obviously a major, but he has a nice face despite it, and a strong, tall build, like Colton. The white eye I guess kind of makes him a little bad ass. In that rugged, hero type, way

"No, you know the laws on adultery with a mate bonded wolf. Radar is straight down the line, not a rule breaker. He never told her, she never knew, never even had the courage to look her in the face all those years because he was completely submissive in the hierarchy to her. It's forbidden for the guards to look upon the alpha's mate and make eye contact. The Luna had many guards, and he just blended in, I guess. He was the only one of her guard to make it back alive though, probably because he was so badly wounded and recovering. that he was taken down and missed the last battle they ever fought. The Luna's guard were all massacred in that last fight, then everyone came home, and she was gone before he recovered enough to regain his duties." Meadow shrugs, retelling what she knows, and I inhale heavily as pieces click in place and it leaves a bitter taste in my mouth.

Juan probably had them all slain too because they would have been loyal to their charge. Their Queen. She was their focus, not Juan, and Radar escaped only down to being almost dead. Which means he missed what happened with my mother and knows nothing of what Juan did. He would be dead too if he'd been there, and it removes any shadow of doubt that he was ever involved. He didn't even get the chance to save her from being sent away. I think if he had been, he would have died to rescue her all over again.

The adultery thing though, highlights how much Colton doesn't respect or care about me if he expects me to throw aside the laws and have an affair with him anyway. We all know the shame it carries, and I could be completely exiled from this pack if we went through with it. His alpha role would be dissolved, and he too could be dethroned to live in shame. He's an asshole of the highest order if he thinks that's a solution to him marking that Puta. He can't have his cake and eat it.

I blink in Radar's direction, trying so hard to get my head around this new information as we sweep into the brightly lit grand foyer of a huge entranceway of this so-called homestead. I mean Colton grew up in a manor that was more of a castle and housed hundreds…. this is small by that standard, but still a freaking castle in its own right. It's amazing, and huge. Prehistoric, and the décor is definitely old-world witch, but I don't doubt it can house a vast amount.

The hub bub of the crowded hall, and wave of bodies moving up and down the stairs, and around in general, as word spreads, they have their long-lost Luna back, makes this place feel pretty overwhelming. It's not enough to distract me from watching Radar follow the group though, stopping when they get so far, as Colton and the doc wheel Sierra's bed in the direction of a narrow hall to the left.

"I should go with them." I nod after them as more of the group of helpers drop off, leaving a bare minimal body count to turn her bed into a door. Mainly Colton, the doctor, and a couple of femmes who are helping with the cabinet and her machines.

"Yeah, you should. We're all going to go back out on patrol of the borders to watch for your tail, we have to keep this place safe. Tell Colton to link me when he wants me back to take care of you, and to find you some decent clothes. I'm sure for right now, Sierra is his priority." She clasps my hand tightly, squeezes it, and leans in kissing me on the forehead, before nodding towards the door that Colton and his skeleton crew went through.

"Meadow…. I'm so glad to be back." I answer honestly, in afterthought, as she goes to move away, warmed by the tearful smile she gives me, and that little rub of my shoulder that it's all going to be okay. Despite everything, even finding out that I could survive out there alone, I really have missed her and being around people. Being in a place that's warm, and safe, and I don't have to hunt for my meals anymore, it reminds me what a pack can be like. I can do it alone; I just prefer this…. not out there. Being here reinforces it. I don't want to go back out and disappear anymore. Everything's different and I don't want to leave again.

"We are all happy to see you back. I made a mistake in letting you leave… Colton is still trying to forgive me. Don't do it again." She half laughs, but there's a serious edge to her tone and a look that hints at a real warning.

"I'm not planning on it. All of this is bigger than us now. Priorities have changed." I point out and she exhales with another nod.

"Good, because he'll strap your ass to him and put guard duty on you twenty-four seven if he even gets a hint you might take off again. That boy is not playing no more, Chica!" That head wobble and finger point that always makes me smile at her, but I 'hmmm' then gesture I should go. I don't care right now what Colton thinks, or wants. I need to see what's going on and then sit. I only dozed in the truck for a short time and I'm physically exhausted and could do with a little moment to get used to this buzzing house. After weeks of nature and solitude, this human chaos is a bit much to get my head around. This whole thing is mentally overwhelming, and sleep is all I want, even though I'm not going to get it for a while.

down a corridor, turn right through the door they went, which takes me along a short hall, through two double doors into a proper set up infirmary. It's already like a mini hospital wing, which is weird given our kinds ability to heal, so I guess this is from when the witch side of Colton's family who stayed here. It's white, large, yet crowded with cabinets full of potion bottles on every wall. Some of it

and doctors. We do sometimes need them, especially in the younger ages when we are not turned yet, and we catch diseases or get injured. We're vulnerable in youth, much

way and nodding at Colton as each and every one leaves. I know the link between pack members is generally the

going to be part of this pack. I mean Colton could initiate me in general, now he's alpha and has that power, and I could maybe link that way, but once his mate gets a whiff I'm here, I don't doubt world war three will erupt. She'll never let him put me in the pack to have more of a bond

the vulnerable in this massive palace. She probably got left behind here when he came for me, because he knew she would just aggravate the situation and make things worse between us. Not

to talk with a woman in a white coat I recognize from the Santo medical center in the valley. She has two nurses flanking her as they busily squirrel around, put trolleys away, and sort out the haywire mess of machines they've taken from Sierra. Tidying up and making her ready

as he strokes her hair back, fully locked on her face as everyone else seems engrossed on the care plan they're discussing. I can hear the doc listing of medications and withdrawal key points, a step by step of what they need to do over the next few hours, but all my attention is on

and a shared pain from finding out things that turned everything upside down. Now isn't the time to hold that against him while all this is going on. Neither of us was prepared or even mature enough to deal with the tsunami of shit we've endured these past weeks, and I'm weary with it all catching up. I don't want to carry the

follow us. Soon as they wake up and realize what's happened, I'm sure Juan will be notified, and there

If all I do is argue and carry a grudge, I'll make it all harder for myself. The pack, this house, this place, its where I'm meant to be through this, and I need to put this shit aside and stop thinking about myself for a little while. About how what he did broke my heart, when right now,

little sub pack and hide out I imagined it would be." The doc infiltrates my thoughts, appearing beside me with that soothing English dialect that's becoming like a warm hug, and I have to smile at

didn't know anything that happened since I left. It's crazy." I shrug, eyeing up the

a condensed version as we wheeled Sierra in. In a way though, I'm rather glad that we ended up in a place that ensures I have time to wake her safely. I don't need to rush and risk her body going into shock. This was definitely your fates guiding the way and providing us with ample shelter for a very difficult task." The doc looks as tired as I feel, and

do you think that will take?" I ask genuinely, eager to see Colton finally get to reunite with her after all

stabilized, and adjust as she progresses. She might have a few days of vegetative state where it seems like we've lost her…. that's normal. Eight years is a long time to live in a dream world and the mind is a complex piece of hardware that sometimes requires a reset period. We'll just take this as it comes, and hope she'll be one of the rare cases of

bets are stacked on the positive side." I perk him up with a

"Quite!"

really meaning just

of tea and a long chat usually resolves many of life's issues. Problems that seem overwhelming are sometimes just smoke and mirrors and getting it

all to a strange girl who fell into your medical facility?" I

Sometimes you have to throw away your entire life's work, put your trust in a higher power, no matter how many signs are killing your hopes, and know they won't steer you wrong if you just stop fighting it." His eyes stray to Colton too and it has the annoying effect of

heavily, feeling hopeless when he's over there, looking like everything I need to