One Sided Love

Kate:

Rachel was gone even mother was gone to ... it was my father who has met his old business representative n stopped for a long chat ... now he was in emma room saying goodbye 

I said ' Daddy do you want to have a cup of coffee '

He looked uncomfortable n said ' no I think I shall go now ... say bye to Alex from my side'

I just nodded n picked up his coat n give it to him... then all of a sudden Martha came with worried expression n said ' kate... oh god kate... Aria is burning n she is so dizzy ... we have to take her to the doctor'

When martha said Aria I didn't stop for a moment n run to my baby... when I hold her she was burning .... I started crying n said ' my baby... oh god... martha bring my car keys'

I hold aria n run to my car but my father stopped me n said ' I will take you to the hospital ... you r not in a position to take her ... I will stay with you'

I just nodded n sat in daddy car n run to hospital

The doctor checked Aria n said they have to keep her over night to control her temperature n check her vitals ... a small baby having this kind of trouble is too much for me.

I was sitting in the sitting area... when my father sit with me he give me coffee... I can only take two sips but my mind was going to Aria... I started sobbing quietly .... I can't lose her... she is my everything.... what kind of mother im ... my baby has been neglected n unloved by her father n now I also neglected her..I was now fully crying ... then my father awkwardly put his hand on my shoulder... n then I realized that for the first time in my life my father was supporting me... I can't control myself n hugged my father for the first time... he was still but I dont care ... I said ' Thank you so much daddy .... I can't tell you how scared I was .... im so happy you are here'

He just stand,still n said ' its nothing.... hmmm... you should probably called Alex'

Alex... shit .... I dont even realized that in all I forgot to inform Alex.... I picked my phone... but I stop when I start recalling all those events when he stated he is not interested in Aria...

I replied ' Daddy ... Alex is busy..n his time will be wasted here'

Father looked annoyed ' his child is in hospital n he can't leave his work? '

I replied ' Daddy you of all people should know that when life gives you something unwanted .... then you don't care for that thing.... and in this case Aria is unwanted' 

Daddy looked embarrassed... n said nothing

I said' Daddy you should go... mom will be waiting for you .... im here for Aria'

want me to leave you alone ... especially in this

alone daddy .... but still thank you for your support I

said ' I will stay till doctor

Alex ... I picked n

Kate.... where are you im here worried sick.... how can you leave emma alone.... I won't even know it was martha who told

alone but not that Aria is sick

in hospital ... she was

Kate... how is

he hanged the phone...

was ringing

was

in worry why you are not home... Alex

that to be so comforting that he felt something for me... but mom is,alone so insisted him more... he

  Alex

kate sitting quietly n looking

 '

I left

just nodded ... I said '' hows ... I mean

temperature is little control... they are keeping her overnight to check if she get any reaction or not... may be they are going to

can't love her I still want her to be ok n happy the way she is always.... the flashes of Aria came in my mind when she try to throw her body towards me in the morning...this guilt is going to kill me

when I try to stay compose then I say something which I don't meant.... n

just want everything go to normal the way it was... Im so tired... uff I know you r sorry but I also know you will react this way agai... I want god stop testing me more... I can't control it .'

forehead ... I said ' its ok kate.... let it out... just let it out.... im there for you...i know im an asshole.... I wished you have told me in time then

to time that you don't want to do anything with Aria.... so I thought its will only

do things which no one deserve but I can be that insensitive I

kate .... listen to me .... ok im an insensitive bastard n I have always hurt you... I know I said I can't loved Aria.... but she's a child ... n I might care for her...I might let her down in the future .... not give that kind of attention n love a father's should give her to .... nor never get closed to her .... but in a,difficult time im

to love her once ...

her have me .... even when she start working she put her in daycare that provides 24/7 information what n where is emma.... she let me promised her one of the days that if something happens to her I have to loved emma more than anything in this world... n I can't for one minute neglect her nor give priority to someone else....

because she is my