One Sided Love

Kate

I felt my self to be lying in some hard surface when I opened my eyes I saw my head,was pressed to Alex chest n suddenly sit in the bed... my moment wake Alex n he looked confused but I was scared that he will regret this again n blame me for it... he might have saw my expression because he shake his head 

Said ' kate are you ok! '

I said ' yeah im .. are you'

He smiled a little ' im perfectly fine ... n last night seems to make me very much ok'

I thought he doesn't regret last night thats why he is in happy mood

He suddenly said ' kate ... I never regret last night.... thats why you r so tense'

I really said that

 ' hmm... I don't know .... I just... I get scared that

seduced me I will always enjoy that

shocked by Alex

'

I replied ' oh..okk'

will try to fulfilled his or her every need but emma is going to be my first priority so after this baby... plz kate don't take this in a wrong way but after this baby I will not act as a father to him but a guardian thats all... n after last night im want to continue this but if you're comfortable ... I know im asking alot n giving less but this is the man I have become plz bear with me if you can.... because my demands are still there which I made with you n im jerk to say this but this is just sex nothing else... there will be days I will become distantwith you ... I will not even fake public display affection because I can't lie to you n everyone n gives you false hopes .... there will be a

what he,said about that he cant love me ... but our baby ... he will not a father but act as a guardian to my baby ... I start seeing flashback of my childhood how my father used to abandon me ... how he insult me n never accepted

a little ' what was happening to you ... you look like

 ' No im fine its used to happen sometime ... im

 ' what do you meant .... from how