One Sided Love

Kate 

I was so tired of this morning sickness that I have to take a leave from the office ... n now im sitting In the floor of bathroom throwing all the content eaten in the breakfast.... doctor said it is normal during few months ... after I told Alex about my pregnancy n his reaction left me so shaken that my health was decreasing day by day .... I seriously meant that I will have the baby in any case but after Alex words keep surrounding in my mind but if the my baby is left like me deprived of father love.... what if my father blame me for all this n my little baby... n how will I survive the expense .... my job is good but I already have lots of expense..the apartment rent... my student loan since my father start saying I should work on my own to achieve higher studies...n now my medical bills... I know I Will manage some how but till when I don't know..

I was so sleepy right now I thought I should take a nap... I don't know how long I slept what I feel some one was knocking my door loudly ... I see the time its 8o'clock pm who it can be.

I looked my appearance in the mirror n boy I looked like a zombie but I don't care about that some one was very eager to meet me

I open the door to see who it is ... I saw it was none other than Alex.

He said 'Are you ok? What the hell is wrong I went to your office n they say you r sick n taken a leave n then I was fucking knocking your door for half an hour but you never replied I become sick by worrying'

I looked him with shocked ' Alex im ok ...but whats wrong... is emma ok... oh my god tell me emma is ok'

Alex relax me' emma is fine she is with my mother '

I replied 'then I why are you here'

'can I come in ' he said

I replied ' ok...but if you here to change or in your way to warn me about my baby then you can go from here'

I come in or not... I

he enter my

lived... I thought your father might have provide you with

yes im living here... alex plz talk what ever you r here for ...

after you exploded the pregnancy

what marry alex ... yeah may be im hallucinating ... no he

saying alex ... I can't marry you ... when you..

love has nothing do with this marriage ... I still love emily n no one can take her place but I have think about this a lot n come to

don't worry about it at,all I won't say

otherwise my father will disown me n emma ... I don't care about money but I do care about my daughter future her needs ...n marrying you is one option... n it is good for you too.... if you want this child

well not solve my problems .... but it looks like it will solve Alex ,

 'what you don't want this baby

my emma futures so I have to think about it..... im still not going to accept you my wife n this baby my child .... I will give you n this baby a name, honor, n every luxury of life but except my heart n love ... those only belong to emma n emily n no one...

I start crying ' how can you say something like that I get it you don't love me ... then don't but plz don't do this to our unborn baby what his fault ... hate me all you want but please give

he looked at me but with that he again become a

you loved emma n wants her to have a good future n with your baby name not to be illegimate then you have to

much i loved emma

will ..( i sniff)