One mate and a Rejection

PART 1 Chapter 19 — 02
Blade's eyes fell upon mines once again and they looked guilty.

I didn't know why I was feeling so shattered inside but I couldn't ignore it.

My eyes dug into Blade's for a moment longer and I realized just how familiar they are.

They stared at me with guilt and regretjust as unexplained as my resurfacing hurt.

I stood up from where I was crouching and ran towards my house,hoping to leave the pain behind.

It remained with me and it seemed like the harder I pumped my feet,trying to get away from it,the faster it chased me.

It was unexplainable really,why I felt like the remaining pieces of my heart who were beginning to give me the slightest of hope had been stepped on by no other than Blade Russell.

An enemy.

The son of a traitor.

The attacker of Jared and the reason he's in the hospital.

I realized that I should bring my unidentified mate into this.

Shouldn't I feel guilty for being in love with Jared when I had a mate already.

Shouldn't I feel guilty for feeling things for Blade that I shouldn't be able to feel for an enemy! How desperate am I to catch feelings for someone just because they rescued me,any decent human being would have done something to help.

Imagine the look on my father's face as he learns his daughter is a betrayer! Imagine now I'd ruin their reputation! But I didn't feel guilty.

In fact,the opposite really.

I grew angry as I thought of just how messed up my life is.

I'm in love with a guy who has a mate.

I'm receiving strange feelings for an enemy,and I have a stranger mate who wont show me his identity.

Back home,I was grateful for Amanda's and Jason's departure.

It gave me an hour or so of studying.

Mom barged into my room,her face wrinkled with stress.

"There's a pack meeting tonight with the enemy pack,all the adults have to go,nobody below twenty-one.

Will you be alright by yourself?"

"Yup,do you know what the meeting is about?"

"Blade Russell putting Jared in the hospital.

It's obvious."

I nodded,my stomach flipping when she said Blade's name,"

Is dad going?"

She shrugged,"

I don't know.

haven't heard

room,leaving behind a trail of

felt disgusted with

caught up in my own personal problems to notice that my parents might be on the verge of divorce,Jason hates me

I sighed.

know what

suddenly rang,snapping me out

it up,the

"Hello?"

“Hey,"

and meet us downstairs in five

“What? For what?"

I asked,getting up.

“Just do it.

Dress in something warm."

hung up,bearing me no

got up and dressed in some

John were waiting outside in

“About time!"

John as I

we

ten minutes,singing along to the

the carnival,I began to

haven't been

John laughed,watching while bouncing

the car and a shadowy figure caught

“Who is that?"

I asked,creeping closer.

Lisa smirked,’ You'll see."

figure neared us,and I recognized him by voice

“Hey guys,"

in proper

"Hey, I muttered.

reason I was

was hoping it would be someone

we entered the carival,buying out tickets

on the

up and down

you kidding? It's

complained John.

fun, I said,dragging Lisa with me as

John get your own

and Lisa are

“It's too easy!"

yelled Ben.

buy the winners

“You're on!"