Now and Forever

Jessica.. Jessica.. Jessica..

Is he having an affair with with her? Is that why he got so mad? That I picked up the phone instead of him-

"Amelia!" Bella shouted and snapped her fingers in my face.

"Wha- Huh?"

"Are you still thinking about-"

"What? Of course not." I looked away and tucked my hair behind my ear- a habit I do when I'm lying and Bella knew this as well.

"You're lying." She stated.

"No I'm not-"

"Don't bother.." She waved me off and fell back on her bed.

"It's that obvious?" I asked after a few seconds of silence as I played with my fingers.

"Yea, it kinda is." She kissed her teeth and sat back up.

"I just can't stop- I mean, is he in a relationship with her-"

"Nu-uh! Stop right there!"

"Bella-"

"No, Amelia. Now, why don't you just ask him?"

"Are you crazy?! He was so mad when she called he didn't speak at all until we got here- even then he just went straight to his study and hasn't been out since! That was three hours ago!"

"Okay. I see your point.."

"Yeah well I better go to bed." I said and stood up after a huge yawn had escaped my mouth.

"Night night- oh and don't forget, you have a doctor's appointment tomorrow."

"I won't, goodnight." I gave her a quick kiss on the cheek and got out of the room.

You know what? let me check on Alexander real quick...

"Alexander?" I called after softly knocking on the door and entering his study.

As I had expected, he was working. You heard that right. He was working. On a Friday night- not to mention it was the day we came back home. Isn't he tired? I mean- he's the one that was driving.

"Hmm?" He hummed in response but didn't bother looking up from his laptop.

"Isn't it.. isn't a little late for you to be working-"

"Amelia-"

"I mean, you did drive-"

"Amelia-"

"And you should probably get some rest-"

"You're not my wife so stop acting like it god damnit!" He suddenly yelled and looked up at me- a flash of regret crossing over his eyes but didn't bother acting on it, instead, he looked back down at his laptop and continued typing, ignoring my presence all together.5

I- you know what? Never mind.

I turned around and walked out of the room without saying another word.

I should have known better than to- no. I didn't do anything wrong. I shouldn't be beating myself up for getting yelled at- I mean, come on Amelia! You're better than that! He's the one that should be beating himself up- he shouldn't have yelled at me in the first place...

Whoever this Jessica person is -whether she makes him angry or not- has been on his mind for hours. Who is she?

I'm not even go there right now, I'm honestly too tired to.

If he doesn't think or see me as his wife, what's the point of sleeping in the same bedroom? In the same bed? what's the point of sharing the same bathroom?

Am I overexaggerating? Maybe. Should I sleep in a different bed every time Alexander does something like this? No. Yes he was wrong for what he did but being a coward doesn't make me feel all that better either.

I pulled back the covers and climbed into bed, the coolness of the sheets immediately melting away the tenseness of my body. My mind went blank and sleep overclouded all my senses as soon as my head hit the pillow.

***

As expected, when I woke up there was no sign of Alexander anywhere in the room. Today was Saturday so there was no work but I wouldn't be surprised if he did go anyway.

I had a doctor's appointment scheduled for today at noon and it was currently 8 am. Might as well get some breakfast..

"You guys are already up?" I yawned and sat down next to Bella who was reading a newspaper? since when does she read newspapers?

"I just came down now and found him.. well.. doing whatever he's doing- what are you doing?" she put the newspaper down and put her intertwined fingers under chin.

"I'm making pancakes." Tony replied in a 'duh' tone and cracked- or at least tried to crack an egg on the edge of the bowl.

"That's the fifth egg you've tried to crack-"

"Making pancakes isn't easy!" He burst out like he was on the verge of tears which made Bella and I laugh. "Yeah it is, why don't you sit down and let me make them?" I stood up and took the egg he was about to crack out of his hand. "Sure." He sighed and took my seat next to Bella.

"Listen Amelia, we have something to tell you." Bella suddenly said in a serious tone. Serious Bella= I'm not gonna like this.

"What?" They looked at each other first before turning to me.

"Did you guys have se-" I whispered before I was so rudely cut off by Bella screaming 'no' like a hundred times.

"What?! Of course not! NO-"

"Okay I get it! what is it that you want to tell me?"

"I just want you to know that I still love you-"

"We're moving out- ow!" Tony yelped and rubbed the spot Bella had punched him on.

"I told you we weren't supposed to be blunt with-"

"But you were taking so long to tell her!"

"It's called being sensitive you doof-"

enough!" They both stopped bickering and looked at me like I was going to break at any second. To be honest; I wanted to. I wanted to fall down to my knees and cry my guts out. I was happy for them, I really was, but I wasn't happy about the fact that I'm going to be alone. Who am I going to

I should do as her bestfriend. I

"That's amazing you guys!"

out?" Bella asked and looked at

"I'm happy for you."

"Wait, really?"

I added

egg perfectly into the bowl which made Tony scoff

way, can I come with you guys to the hospital?"

decided to watch a movie or two after breakfast because

"Sure." Bella answered.

you have to say?

you want me to

want you

"No."

You

guys bicker like an old married couple." I mumbled but they heard me and

"We're not-"

"We do not-"

up I

I- never mind..

***

as she moved the wand around my stomach. "Would you like a printed sonogram?" She asked an handed me tissue to wipe the gel

"Yes please-"

need to

"I- I'm gonna go-"

finish up here," I said and looked up at her, "whatever he

Amelia." She looked at

do you want to talk about?" I folded the tissue in half and

doctor's appointment?" He didn't yell but man did he

you'd want to come."

you thought Tony would like to come?!" And

Tony asked if he could come

have

would I have

"Yesterday-"

before or after you yelled at me- oh oh I know! This morning? Oh wait, you were nowhere to be found." I know I promised myself I'd be the bigger person but I'm not going to let him yell at me all he wants for

"I-"

-again- for asking if you would like to come for a doctor's appointment for a child you didn't even want from the

probably contemplating on what and

asked popped her head through

please

"Sure."

"Thank you."

**four hours later**

"Baby's gender?"

"Next month."

"Baby shower?"

be having a baby shower Bella, we've talked

I listened. That's

having

it." She shushed me and

"So?" I asked when I was getting impatient, "what

mean?" I know exactly what

play dumb-" she stopped and looked up

"Nothing happened-"

BS and you

"I'm-"

"Lying. " Oh god.

bathroom wall, "something did happen

it out

okay! calm down.. he yelled at me. See? it's in the normal so nothing to

he yell at you

"Nothing big-"

"Amelia!"

to bed since it was late -big mistake that was- and he yelled; 'you're not my

you are

Doesn't mean

tell me why you're pregnant with

a mistake and you know it." I rolled

beautiful mistake- But other than that, what did you do after he yelled

to bed." I shrugged and slid down to

y.. you did

and

"You didn't yell back?!"

"Nope."

"Why not?!"

would I have said? huh? and second; he was clearly bothered about

that doesn't give him

"I know Bella-"

did you would have put him in his

only one at fault here, okay? He

"Stop defending him!"

"Bella-"

the wrong here and

should apologize. What he

I'm right." She scoffed and

you know what the worst part of all of this is?" I asked after a

"What?"

to come up and

you going to do

"I don't know-"

She burst out like a lightbulb had lit up over

"And what's that?"

"You seduce him-"

woah woah.. what has that got

doesn't but

Bella?! There is

"He'll tell you everything-"