Not Your Mate Anymore

Chapter 39 Sabrina And Her Mates

"Thank you, Lucas." I say and he nods his head and leaves. 

I stand up and straighten myself out. We were sitting in my garden, on the grass. 

"You coming mother?" I ask her and she shakes her head no. 

"I'll let you deal with your other mate alone. I have a feeling you are going to have your hands full today." She says before cackling away, walking around my rose bush. 

What does that even mean? This woman was always so cryptic. 

I walk in to the house and up the stairs to the alpha floor, where my baby Adrastos was. 

I walk in to find him with Kate, my new nanny. He was sleeping as Kate watched TV. 

"Has he been good?" I ask and she nods at me, standing up to go for her break. 

It has been six months since Adrastos birth and boy was my kid growing. No more just eating and sleeping, he was growing to be more and more active. 

Xander walks in, interrupting my thoughts. He walks up to me to kiss my cheek, behind him was Maximus Forrest. 

Looking at him never gets easier. What he put me through plays through my mind whenever I am in his presence and I get a twinge of anger before taking a breath and remembering I chose to forgive him. 

"Hello Kimberley.." Max says to me and I just smile and nod. That is all I can do while I calm my wolf down from her anger. 

"I just came here to let Max in, I'll be in my office if you need me." X says to me, kissing me deeply and igniting a fire inside of me. 

When he pulls away, I throw him a questioning look but I knew he was just marking his territory and I can gel with that. My problem is, I was horny now and he was going to leave me like this. 

He winks at me and walks out of our home. Max coughs to lighten the mood but I was far gone. Goddess! 

"Can I get you anything? Water, juice or beer?" I ask. 

"Water is fine." He says and I walk to the kitchen and come back with two bottles of beer. He just smiles and grabs one. 

We have to sit and wait for Adrastos to wake up because he has a schedule now and afternoon naps are crazy vital. 

"While we wait, Sabrina, I'd like to get a few things off my chest." Max says to me and I'm on the edge of my seat already. 

I just nod my head to let him know be can carry on. 

"You know when we were kids, I was raised to always be perfect. No faults and no mistakes. I had not one person to show me how to treat a woman and that's no excuse believe me, I just wish my father focused more on my emotional intelligence, my emotional strength. Had my mother and I connected better as mother and son, maybe I would have turned out different but she had me and dumped me on my dad's lap. Only visited me a handful of times to lessen her guilt I guess. I am working on a relationship with her and she would love to meet Adrastos, if that's okay with you." Max says, running his tatted hand through his hair. 

"I am sorry for disrespecting you as my mate and as my luna. I am sorry for allowing another woman in to our lives and putting her in between our sacred bond. I know what your innocence meant to you, you gave yourself to me and I mistreated you. I take full responsibility for that. I thought you were the weak one but in actual fact, it was I that needed to harden up. I blamed you for things way out of your control and it's so crazy thinking about it now. Your uncle got in my head but I allowed it and fed the doubt seed he planted. I was also jealous. I mean you are incredible and I just couldn't handle being the weaker one." He says to me, his eyes getting all glassy on me. 

 

This was it. The apology of the century. The one time in my life someone takes accountability for putting me through the worst. 

"I put you through so much, I can't believe you forgave me like that. I can't begin to thank you for letting me be in Adrastos' life even after trying to kill him. I promise I'm working on myself and bettering the relationship I have with my parents. I need to do that to be a better man and father. I know I've lost you, but I am also doing this for you because even when I was that evil bastard, I knew then and I know now, you are it for me. The only one and it will only ever be you. Xander is a lucky man and if you are happy then that's all that matters." He says to me and this time I was the one with the tears. 

"Thank you for this apology. It means a lot to me and I hope one day we can be friends, for our son's sake." I say and he nods his head in agreement. 

"So, how are things?" He asks and I chuckle. 

"Well, it turns out I'm the next moon goddess." I say and Max takes a swig of his beer. 

"Yeah. We all saw your transformation. That was really insane." He says and I laugh. 

"That's not the half of it." I say and he raises his eyebrows. 

"There's a whole different werewolf world and in that world, I have a mate. I met him already too." I say and Max's eyes bulge out. 

"What?" Max sputters. I giggle at his reaction. 

"Yup! He would not tell me his name but he came here to make himself known and I had to fight every nerve in my body that was telling me to go over to him. It was just crazy." I say shaking my head, still in disbelief of that event. 

"Wow. Your life is never boring, is it?" Max asks and we chuckle. 

"Nope. Never." I say as tears brim my eyes and a small chuckle escapes my mouth. 

Max scoots closer to me. 

"There is no rejection in that world so you can imagine the turmoil that's going on in my head right now. My heart aches for him but also loves Xander and it is worse now that this new mate is here, in this world. It feels like I can reach out and I'll touch him. He feels that much closer." I say. 

I close my eyes, trying to take deep breaths. 

"How does Xander feel about all of this?" Max asks me. 

"He's also conflicted. He doesn't want to stand in between me and this guy but he also wants to fight for our love." I say and Max nods his head in understanding. 

"How do you feel about this?" He asks and I chuckle once more. 

"I feel robbed. Just as I felt robbed of Percy, then you robbed me of you and now this whole new world blows up in my face to not only reveal that I'm the future moon goddess but that I have a mate too. It is all just too much." I say as I blink trying to keep my tears from falling. 

"Kimberley, how do you really feel?" Max asks me and I let out a sigh.