My Second Chance

Ryder's P.O.V

"I love you Ryder... Don't forget that, okay? I love you..." I stared at Sapphire who was looking at me with sadness and longing in her blue gorgeous eyes. I didn't know what to say. She was the one who rejected me in the first place. What the fuck is she saying now. But the sadness in her eyes were really weighing my heart down. I clenched my jaw tightly.

"I wasn't the one to reject a mate." I snapped. She flinched at the hurt in my voice. "I know. And a million apologies won't help. This is the last time you'll see me. I just wanted to say goodbye." She smiled sadly. "I haven't even marked you yet, you don't have the power to enter my dreams Sapphire. This dream," I gestured to my surroundings, "is fake. Why am I even dreaming about you?!" "I wouldn't take back anything if I could. I would've done the same thing." Her voice breaking on the last sentence. I felt a sharp stab of pain in my heart. What did she mean that she would've done the same thing over again?! Doesn't she know that I'm hurting inside really much?! I wanted to call her a heartless bitch so much... but I couldn't. As much as I hated her, a small part of my heart would remind me that I still loved her. And I still did. That's how pathetic I was. "I don't care about you anymore." I said coldly and hurt flashed in her eyes. It took everything to stop myself from apologizing for the harsh words. "I know." She whispered and took a step towards me. I instinctively took a step back to maintain the distance between us. Not because I couldn't bear being near her...but because I'm scared I'll lose the tiny self control I had left and crash our lips together. "Please. Don't step away from me. This is the last chance I get to see you." She pleaded with tear filled eyes. Her crying shouldn't have affected me... but it did, more than it should. "It shouldn't really effect you like that, should it? Isn't that the reason you never let me finish the mating process? Cause you never even loved me." I scoffed. Disbelief shone brightly in her eyes. "No... no... never assume that. I love you, really. All the things I said earlier was just to cut off the feelings we had." The beautiful angel in front of me whispered. I shook my head at her words, "and did that help?" I couldn't help bit question bitterly. "No." She said it so softly that I almost missed it.

She took a step forwards and I stood my ground. Fine, she doesn't want me to move away, I won't. It's just a fucking dream. What harm could it bring?

She took small timid steps towards me until there was only three centimetres between us. She stood on her tippy toes and pressed her lips to mine. I stood my ground, not returning the kiss. I knew I would lose control if I did. "I'll miss your kisses." She whispered.

"Well, I won't." I gritted out. That's a total lie. I would miss her kisses. I would miss her hugs. Her body heat even. Because I know that I won't be able to touch her now that she rejected me. "I know. I did something unforgivable." She murmured. I didn't make a move to acknowledge her words and stared ahead. She trailed a hand down my chest and grabbed her hand, not letting it to continue explore the grounds it intended to. She looked up at me. I was taken aback by her eyes. They looked so... real. Not at all like I was dreaming.

"I don't mind if you find another Luna. No, you must find another Luna. Someone capable and stronger. Someone who wouldn't hurt you." She whispered softly. "Like you?" I couldn't help but ask harshly. "Like me." She looked down guiltily. "If you meant what you said earlier. About you loving me, why would you break off with me?" I gripped her hand tighter. I couldn't help but think, this dream feels so real...

"I have my reasons. But it's to protect you from me." Her voice firmer. "I don't need protecting. I am an Alpha." I growled. "Sometimes Alphas need help too." She mumbled. "I don't care what you have to say. I'm waking up. This dream isn't worth my time. You aren't worth my time." I muttered. "Okay. I'll leave. But Ryder, I did it to protect you. Please, keep yourself safe. Find a new Luna quickly so she can help you with the pack. I've failed the task obviously. Just.. take care." She chocked back a sob. "I love you." She added silently but I heard anyway.

"Why are you doing this?" I asked bitterly. She turned and faced me, giving me a small sad smile, "if you love something, let it go." "What do I need to be protected from? You're not making sense." I glared at her. She obviously got hurt by my actions.

"Me. Everything happened because you met me." She said, regret evident in her sweet melodic voice. "I'm a monster." She added bitterly before leaving.

That's when I looked around at my surroundings. It was the spot I took her to. The forest where we laid in the cold night. Where we fed off each other's body heat.

The one where I found the R loves S and thought it was a hint. Well, today proved that it wasn't at all real. That I hadn't found a perfect mate.

Soon, I drifted out of the dream and into sleep.

Sapphire's P.O.V

the side of the couch Ryder slept on peacefully. Tears started to fall down my cheeks. He slept on his office couch just to avoid

I felt. He's going to think it's just a dream, Gwen said bitterly. I touched my lips. My last kiss with Ryder had happened in a dream I had

kiss on his forehead. I looked at his lips. They looked so inviting but I forced myself to look away from them. If I kissed his lips, he would wake up and I would

cover the sob that was threatening to come out. I took a deep breath, calming down and looked at him, for the last time. "I'm sorry, Ryder. I'll always

that I exited his office and closed the door behind me

she had detected my movement. "Are you sure you want to come? You won't miss anything?" She made no moves to acknowledge my words. "Clover, life gets harder as soon as we step out of the borderline." I mumbled. "I'm leaving with the only person who have cared about me. Is that hard to believe? And I'm not the one to chicken out of anything." I could just hear the smirk in her voice. "Thanks. You are the best." I hugged her tightly. "Second best next to Ryder." She muttered. I pretended to not hear the statement. I needed all the concentration I could conjure to escape this place.

on." She tugged my hand and we sneaked around the house

heard a voice growl. I froze. Shit, we were out in the open. I spotted a bush nearby us. I tugged Clover as we hid behind it. The guy on patrol didn't spot us and assumed

behind another bush. "Who's that? Jasper! I think I heard somebody here!" I heard more footsteps. Shit. "Is it a bunny or something?" A guy asked. "Rabbits wouldn't make that much a noise." A guy snorted. He sounded like a dying whale. "Let's check. Let's hope it's not rogues. The Alpha would kill us." A third voice piped up. Flashlights steed flashing around. "Our soon to be Luna would keep him in control. She has a good kind of affect on him." The first guy said. "I heard they got into a fight today. Don't know if they made up or anything." The third guy muttered. "Make up sex always makes everything better." The second guy laughed. I nearly leaped out from the bush to pound his head in. A headless werewolf, I would've died to see it. "Not all guys are sex addicts like you." The first guy grumbled. "There's nothing

Black. I'll never forget

smile. We've been walking nonstop for three

is at the pack house." Clover wondered aloud, sitting beside me under the shade of a large tree. "It won't be. He probably doesn't even misses me." I frowned. "Are you crazy? Of course he does. People don't fall out of love that fast." Clover shook her head. "They probably don't even know we're gone." I mumbled. "Sure they do." Clover snorted. I pulled out a granola bar out of my bag and

won't help anything." She jutted out a hip. "I'm not a sour puss." I protested. Sure you aren't, Drew tsked. I mentally gave her my death glare. Clover snorted in reply. "Okay, fine. Maybe a little." She gave me a flat look. "As I said, just a little. I'm sorry. But I'll try to get over it as soon as possible." I emphasised on little. "That'll take forever." Clover sighed

I knew that

stares from passerbys. "Clover. Don't draw attention."I hissed. "Sorry." She stuck out

It's like fate was on our side today. "Look Clover, a small apartment for rent." I grinned. "Great luck is bestowed upon us. Thank you Lord." She yelled. "Kids just get weirder and weirder each day." An old woman passing us muttered. Unfortunately, my sharp hearing caught it. "Stop it Clover, stop being so excited." I groaned. "I can't help it. I've always wanted to come." She bounced in excitement. "I wish I could say that I don't

Remir. Yeah. Umm... JustCoffee? Now? Sure. Thanks." I smiled and hung up. "Did we get it?" Clover asked with a hopeful expression.

thing was... The cafe was right around the corner. I couldn't help but think that something was wrong. First the flyer, then the quick agreement and the close cafe. It was like it was planned

I asked politely. "Ahh... You are the girl who called, yes?" He asked excitedly. Too excited for normal. I pushed the suspicion to the back of my head. "Yes. That's me. I'm Sapphire Jackson. This is my friend." I

you to see it later, yes?" He grinned. "Yeah. That would be nice." I tried to suspress the shudder at the sight of food stuck between

about the rent and how the money would