My Name is NOT Cupcake

"Then why the hell am I here?! You say you need me but you obviously don't. You have Kendra. You always have, right? You took me from my family, you hurt my boyfriend, you threaten the life of the people I love and put me through hell and for what? To claim you do everything for me? If that were true, you wouldn't have slept with her! You bit me; you put me through this hell and did whatever the hell you wanted in the meantime. I want to just go home and pretend none of this ever happened. I hate you, Elias Madsen... I really do," I sobbed. I regretted my words as soon as I said them, but at the same time, I meant it somewhat. I hated Elias for what he did to me... but I didn't hate him, even as much as I wanted to. I was hurt. Elias froze and just stared at me. A look of pain crossed his face. I knew I hurt him too, and a part of me wanted him to know how I felt... but the larger part ached with the thought of hurting him. It only made me mad at myself. I grunted and puffed out a breath.

"I hate feeling this way. I want to hate you. I want to claw your face out and leave and never come back, but I can't. You and this stupid mate bond," I ranted. "I, Nova Moore, re-... reje-... God, I can't even say it anymore. Do me a favor and put me out of my misery. Let me go home," I asked. I hated that I couldn't even bare the thought of leaving him. I didn't want to feel like this anymore.

"Nova, you're being ridiculous and emotional," Elias said, dismissing me.

"Am I, Elias? You chose Kendra before you met me and you still do apparently," I said. He shook his head.

broke down in sobs again. I turned away from him

are you going?"

I said over

just kept walking. Eventually, my crying eased and I

heard from in front of me. I

whole time?"