Love Aint Always Pretty novel Chapter 67

Revelation

- usually a secret or a surprising fact that is made known: something that surprises you

67

NICK'S POV

PRESENT DAY

December 22

"Nick!!"

I see Tracy crying as she runs towards me while entering my bedroom. She throws herself at me and I was surprised why on earth she was crying. I hugged her and tried to calm her down but she was literally shaking in fear.

"Hey. What's wrong? Another fight with Clyde?" I asked.

She shakes her head in response and continues crying on my shoulder.

"What's wrong baby sis?" I asked as I cup her cheeks while wiping her tears.

"Nick..." She sobs.

"What? Why are you crying like this? Did something happen to Clyde? Tracy what the hell is going on!" I exclaimed.

"Im sick." She muffled.

My brows creasing as I try to understand what she was trying to say to me. Her eyes tells me that she looks so scared and she keeps shaking her head in disbelief.

"What the fuck do you mean by that?" I demanded an answer.

"I have..." She trails off with a trembling voice.

"I have cancer." She cries.

I paused and watch my own sister cry in terror. I'm trying to sink in what she just said to me. I stand on my feet and shake my head in disbelief of what I said. I pulled my hair back. Fear started growing in me and for no reason I'm so mad. I am literally mad at myself.

"No. That's gotta be a joke. You're not sick. You don't have cancer." I spit as my tears gathers in my eyes.

"Nick.. I went to three different doctors this week to confirm it and it's positive. I have throat cancer." She cries.

I hurriedly ran to her and wrapped my arms around Tracy. Both of us cried. Oh god I don't have any money for her treatment. I'm so scared of what's gonna happen to her.

"Who knows about this?" I asked.

"Just you, me and Clyde. I'm so scared Nick. I'm really scared. I don't wanna die yet." Tracy cries on my shoulder as it breaks my heart even twice as hers.

"The doctor said if it spreads through my head... I'll..." She trails off with her shaky voice. I held her tighter around my arms.

"No. That's not gonna happen to you. I won't let that happen Tracy. Fucking no."

I'm scared too but I need to be strong for her. I kissed her temple and hugged her tight again. "I won't let anything happen to you Tracy. I'll do everything I can to save you. I'm not gonna lose you."

First I lost my mom, then Catherine and my son and now Tracy? Why is god punishing me? What did I ever do wrong to punished like this?

"You're all that's left with me." I say.

December 23

I look at Tracy and finally found the reason of her unexplainable weight loss this week. I thought nothing serious was wrong with her but I guess cancer had strike into my sister too.

"Just go and spend Christmas with Savannah this holiday break. I know she wants you to spend it with her. I can stay at Clyde's." Tracy tells me.

"Trace I need to look after you and make sure you drink your medicines."

She smiles. "I'm fine. I'll be fine. Don't worry too much. Clyde is there to nurse me anyways."

"Trace." I warn her that I want to go with her this break to make sure she is safe.

She hugs me. "Nick I know you love Savannah. Don't be too hard on yourself. I really really like her for you. She loves you so much. So be with her. I'll be okay."

I pulled myself away. "But if something happens to you I'll drive back home as soon as I can and don't you dare tell Clyde not to call me up."

She smiles. "I'll let him call you if something happens."

I kissed her temple. "Please be careful."

"I will." She says weakly.

Her voice had changed too.

December 25

I was thrilled to be spending Christmas here with Savannah's family even though it was clear to see that they hate me for her. Cameron ruined everything last night and now her parents hate me cos they know I was imprisoned for murder. I can see that I'm never enough for her and she's so unreachable just like Catherine. I'm just an ordinary man with a fucked up past that I've been trying to leave behind cos I was starting a new life with Savannah. But I still can't stop thinking about Tracy. As soon as I finished taking a piss, my phone rang inside my pocket.

Clyde calling...

"Hello? Clyde?" I hurriedly answered.

"Nick! It's about Tracy!" He exclaims.

My heart quickly raced. "Why? What's wrong? What happened to Tracy?"

I hear Clyde crying. "Nick she's coughing blood. Blood is coming off her nose too. I'm so scared Nick. Shit!"

My heart pulsated rapidly and I just wanted to go where she is. I wasn't able to say anything cos I'm fucking scared. I'm not there for her. I'm not there for my little sister. "Clyde... Man... uhhh where is.., where are you?" I stutter.

"I rushed her to the hospital. We're at the hospital right now. The doctor said she needs surgery man." Clyde sounded scared.

I exhale heavily. "I'll be there tonight or either tomorrow. Tell her to hang on. Clyde please take care of Tracy for me."

"Yes. I will."

I ran my fingers through my hair and felt like my heart dropped in the ocean of sorrows and fears. I walked out of the bathroom and tried to look calm.

"Nick."

I pulled my head up and it was Mr. Canterbury who called my attention.

"I need to talk to you. Man to man." He says with a glass of whisky on his hand.

I followed him anyways though my mind is filled with troubled thoughts about Tracy. I entered his huge fully furnished office with tons of books on the sides and he sits right across the spinning chair of his desk. I walked closer to him and sat down on the chair right across him.

"Let's get it straight. I don't like you for my daughter." he says.

I nod. "I understand sir."

"I don't like her dating your kind. You're... Out of her league. Look at you, I bet you don't have enough money in your pocket to take her to a fancy restaurant."

I closed my fist into a ball.

"I love your daughter sir." I say, hoping it could change anything.

"I know you do." He says so seriously.

"But all I'm saying is, name your price and I'll pay you. Just stay away from Savannah. I don't want her future to be ruined by a guy like you. You're an ex-convict and you're not the kind of guy Savannah needs to be seen dating with." He adds.

I took a deep breath in and tried to calm down before I could hit his face. He's adding up to my problems.

"How much do you want?" He asked me as he pulled out his cheque.

Then I thought about Tracy and her surgery. I need this money. I need it so bad to save my sister. Then I remembered he's a surgeon. Maybe he can help.

"I need..." this is for Tracy.

"I need the amount for a full surgery for throat cancer, sir." I say.

His brows shoot up.

"You have... Cancer?" He asked.