Life After the Storm

As I'm starting to wake up, I'm too lazy to get out of bed just yet. I have been so focused on Jayden getting better that I haven't thought of myself. I have been watching him like a hawk since he has fully healed, not wanting him to be tempted to hurt himself. I have been so worried when he is out of my site so when he is, it's not for long.

I still haven't been able to tell Landon the truth about me. He has been so busy with pack stuff that I barely have seen him. I hope that he is at least attempting to spend time with Jayden. I wouldn't dare give him fatherly advice. Knowing it would only piss him off. He isn't a person who really likes people giving him any kind of advice on how to raise his son.

I have been staying at Landon's house in the guest room, so I can watch over Jayden properly, but some of the she-wolf's dislike my presence in his home. My only concern is Jayden. I want to make sure he is okay. I need to be there for Jayden, but I am also starting to worry that I'm not going to have a life of my own. I feel like I'm being selfish asking for alone time, but I just need a day, even just a couple of hours to myself every now and again.

I'm going to ask Landon if it's at all possible for him to come home early to plan a surprise adventure with his son so I can go home, get a shower and bring some clothes over for when I stay. Hoping he doesn't get mad at me by asking him to spend time with Jayden. Knowing he is so sensitive to how people word things when it comes to Jayden.

In all honesty I should just tell Landon to grow the fuck up, he needs to stop being so damn sensitive to everybody's words, he is an alpha for christ's sake. I'm so sick and tired of tiptoeing around about everything, I just want to be myself not having to worry. 

He hasn't really talked much to Jayden since I told him that he was hurting himself on purpose. I'm not sure what is going on, but he needs to get over it. Jayden is a smart kid he sees that his father is ignoring him. Landon needs to talk about it instead of burying himself in his work.

Wondering what time it is, shocked that Jayden has not been in my bedroom to wake me up, yet he is usually always up bright and early. He wakes me up by jumping and singing on my bed. Wondering where he is, I force myself up, knowing I could lie in this comfy bed all day. I need to resist knowing I need to get up, so I can check up on Jayden.

I get up and search for my robe to put it on and head for the door once I open it's quiet. It's sort of making me nervous about how quiet it is. I walked to Jayden's room and I noticed he's not in it, I panicked. I run to Landon's room and notice he's not there, either. Hoping that they are together, and that Jayden has not run off once again. I go down the stairs to the main entrance as I open the door to go outside. Landon and Jayden are coming, I am so relieved.

Landon looks at me confused “were you really going to go outside in your rope you need to go change before you go outside.

a laugh  “no I was not I saw that Jayden wasn't in

“Well, I think it's time that you go home and things

of Jayden, will I be able to deal with it all? “Do you think that everything would

course everything would be ok. Why wouldn't it be we don't need

father “daddy, that wasn't very nice to say you don't have

play so Lilly and I can have a

to her, or I'm going

at Jayden “it's ok buddy, your daddy just wants to talk to

here for you, I'm here for him, I just want to make sure that he's ok, and he

I don't need your help. I think it's time that

I go back to the cabin and

want you to leave this house. I'm

please this man, who has no way of pleasing him. His jealousy

your problem is, but I've been staying here for your son. You have been off on business every day for the past 2 weeks and I have been watching over Jayden, making sure that he is ok. It's fine if

doesn't see my intentions, they are not bad. I go to my room to change and to get my clothes,