Life After the Storm

As I wake up, I am still in the same spot on his bed with his scent surrounding me. Tears fill my eyes that he just left me naked on the bed with blood on the sheets, blood in my inner thighs. I go to get up, I'm sore my body trembles as I go to stand. I'm not sure what to do or how to react, I just shift and take off out of the house. As I run I see others looking at me but I don't react I run the feeling that I once loved the most the wind blowing thru my fur is gone I feel nothing. I tell my wolf "I'm so sorry to disappoint you Star, but I can't do this any longer, I am not going back to him; I don't want to fight anymore it's time that I join my family." I block her out so she don't talk me out of it.

His mark will always be a reminder of him I just can't, I'm done I don't have any more reason to fight. I never thought that he would have done that to me, I know that I provoked him and he wanted to prove to me that he is the one in control. He still had no right to do what he did to me, still feeling the pain he caused me all over my body. No one will ever do this to me ever again. I am done with anyone trying to control any part of my life.

I push myself more than I have ever done before. I run as fast as I can knowing I can not be caught, not this time I'm disgusted with myself wondering why I was left to survive when I'm weak and pathetic. I began Wondering what I did so badly to deserve everything that has happened to me. With every twig that breaks from a distance, I become nervous knowing that he's chasing me. I don't want to go back to him; I don't want to be controlled. 

He broke me; I was already broken, but he just finished the job. This life isn't what I asked for, I can't bear the pain any longer, I am exhausted from my life. I notice that I'm getting to the top of Wicked Falls there's nowhere else to go but to jump. Knowing there is no way of  survival once I leave the edge not caring, wanting to be with my family again and escape the life that was chosen for me.

I then smell my mate not wanting him to capture me not wanting to go back to him a life that would be full of nothing but pain I look back at him in my wolf form I then shift to my human form and allow myself just fall backwards off the edge he pounces for me but he is to late he has no luck I am already falling. As I am falling, there is no fear. I feel free knowing that it's all about to come to an end, I'm not scared. I feel my body smashing into the water. It's not painful, it's not anything but a little confusing, not sure what is happening. It's almost like I feel like I am floating on a cloud to some unknown place.

I know I hate myself every day for what happened. One of the best days that is supposed to be about celebration is now a day of mourning the loss of everyone I loved.

you don't have to be scared” I hear him say “I'm

die I wanted to save you, but I

wrong,

so lost and alone my mate is a monster I have no one that

become a mother

I don't want to go back I don't want to survive I

it's just not your time you have so much to do in your life. It has

Alpha, and pregnant he has gotten what he wanted his heir he will know that I am alive, how will I escape him without him finding