Judas kiss

Della looked at the ring on her finger, skeptical. Had she made the right decision last night. She felt awful about the whole situation. Somehow, Della also found it comforting that she had voiced out her thoughts and not merely pushed everything under the rug and went straight for the chapel.

"Oh my God! It's so beautiful wow... I mean getting married wouldn't be so bad." Mila said staring at Della's ring. She was currently at Mila and Alfredo's suite. Mila's stomach had grown tremendously bigger from the last they had seen each other. "What was his reaction to your answer?"

"I think.. he was okay with it. I don't know, I feel like he was expecting it but still tried.." Della replied.

—

"Are you okay?" Andre rushed to be of aid.

Della replied yes as she rinced her mouth on the basin. Andre's heart was beating so fast, this was very very very nerve-racking. The first he did this, he was full of confidence. It didn't worry him that much, that he would be rejected. He felt as if everything was in his favor back then but now it was a different story altogether. He had broken that trust and getting her to commit to him and trust him again would be absolutely backbreaking because she was so firm in her beliefs. Della had built a wall around her and it would be hard to get around it. No sex included, gifts included, cheesy words included, even with being pregnant with his child.

"I'll be right there.." she informed him as she continued to take her time brushing her teeth. Why would he do this? Why would he put her in such a position? Della winced while brushing her teeth. Another attempt to avoid the whole situation altogether. She even wished someone would call her with an emergency, maybe Leo could run into their room like he always did; anything at this point!

When she was done, Andre was waiting for her. He sat on their bed switching channels on the television. From football to baseball.. he seemed really disoriented. Della yet again went to hide in the closet, as she picked out her night dress as well as put lotion all over her body. Just to kill time. She knew she was being pathetic simultaneously, Andre told himself he wasn't going anywhere. He laid the ring on his bedside and waited for her.

Della was disappointed when she walked out of the closet to see Andre awake on his phone. She went on her side of the bed and made herself comfortable.

"It's a no!" He said his voice raspy. "Right?"

Della didn't miss the way his somber blue orbs, held so much sadness.

"Don't be so quick to assume... I really loved ring and the gesture?"

"But?" He replied, immediately entwining his hand with hers. Her hand was soft and warm, it fit perfectly in his.

"I'm—" She couldn't find the right words. "I don't want to get married. I told myself, I would never do it again. As much as I tried to be optimistic about our wedding, it was horrible. I felt like an outcast at my own wedding. I tried really hard to convince myself that it didn't matter because you seemed happy and.. I don't want to ever go through that again. I don't want people to have expectations of me as your wife. I know someone out there will be waiting for the day we finally divorce again. I'm just not going to put myself through that. I also understand if this means so much to you..." She paused. Andre was listening attentively. "I understand if you want a label. I mean what's the point, we might not even last as long as you think we will. You can be and marry anyone you want to. I don't mind, even if we're expecting. I think co-parenting has never done any harm. It's easier to separate before things are in too deep."

"This is you trying to push me away.." Andre replied in a calm voice. "Separate before things are in too deep.. you're here pregnant with my kids and I can't think of any other reason why this isn't already in too deep."

"It's not because—"

know what I'm feeling. Della you want to

Della fell silent.

make the same mistake twice, L'amour de ma

blushed, she loved the way his tongue rolled whenever he spoke

raison de vivre.." He said again teasing her. She smiled, she wouldn't

"Mon amoureux."

yet again, he loved the effect it had on

me, I will still be here waiting. Even if it's twenty years from now, just tell me when you're ready. We don't even have to but I feel the need to want to show the world. How blessed, I am to be spending the rest of my life with a gem like you." He chuckled. "Whom even after having been with a French man for

her eyes at

t'aime' 'juste comme ?a' and what's

"Don't ever

you always said them to

sex and French lessons combined. What would you look like if you went in public and said faster faster, fuck, just like that, lick the tip. It sounds even more wrong

the words my ex-husband would say to me while— when I was trying to move on and forget about him.." Della replied, a little annoyed. "Besides I sort of just hated French, France and everything after that. It just annoyed

French lessons?" He

heritage, I just thought since he didn't have a father I owed him that much. Also

lot about this huh?" Andre said softly rubbing circles on her hand. "Look at you now, carrying my kids.. and you thought I

to lay on his chest, she didn't

being known as the child

Andre listened.

him finding out how we ended. I just assumed he would hate

a cheater like you actually did? Don't sell yourself short.." he kissed

they wrote about me. How else do I put

ever think we would end up

time I had seen you in three years well.. in person since your face is always plastered everywhere. They told me to serve your room because you had ordered a midnight meal and

hated

"No, I was scared.."