Judas kiss

When Della heard the first knock.

She quickly composed herself not wanting Spencer to see her like this. Della didn't want to go back in there and see Andre. It just hurt so much. It hurt even more when Amber brought her pregnancy endeavors with her. It reminded Della of all the time she never had with Andre. She wondered how it would have been like if Andre had been there with her throughout all those times..

Would Andre have loved to accompany her to the doctor for her routine checkups? Would he have been excited about having their first child? Would he have held her hand during labor and tell her that everything would be okay?

She couldn't stop comparing her first child experience with everyone else who had a smooth sail with their partner. She will admit that she was beyond jealous.

She was jealous—

Jealous because she never had that.

"Come in?" Della said in a composed voice. Her eyes puffy from crying. All the air left her lungs when she saw a certain 6'2 male blonde entered the cabin suite. She watched him as if it was in slow motion. As he closed the door only for his dazed blue eyes study her from head to toe, as she sat on the bed in the middle of the room. She felt self conscious. He felt as if he was staring at the most beautiful woman in the world. His breath was caught in his throat. It was crazy to think he once had her... beautiful as she is. He once had her with no complications. They were married, he was one lucky bastard who got to see her every evening and wake up next to her every morning. That pestering feeling that?he once?had her and he let her go. Andre had it all with this woman and he let it all go and now she was engaged, promised to another man.

Della had not noticed but now that he was up close and not in the far corner of a room filled with more than a hundred people. She noticed it instantly that he was wearing his wedding suit.

"Are you alright?" He asked, walking to seat beside her on the elegant bed cover.

"I'm fine." Della said almost immediately.

Andre nodded as he noticed the lavish ring on her finger. His heart felt as if it was tightening in his chest. It felt restricted.

"Why did you wear this suit?" She asked him. He hadn't expected her to notice but she did and he didn't have a straight answer when thinking about it.

"I wanted-" he paused. "I wanted to somehow feel the same feeling, I felt that day on the second of May." Andre said their anniversary date. "I wanted to somehow feel like I still have you. That you're going to be wearing my ring instead of his—"

There was silence between them.

"So why did you bring her?" Della asked her voice laced with jealousy.

"I needed a date since I lost my wife because I was stupid. Since I let her go and never got to feel the same way Daniel feels right at this moment." Andre said with a shrug fumbling with his fingers. They both felt the same way about this whole pregnancy guilt.

"I wanted to tell you, I tried." Della said softly.

"I know you did." He responded remembering how she had begged and begged him to give him only two minutes because she had something important to tell him.

"I didn't do it, intentionally Andre. I wasn't asking you to take me back... I just wanted you to know you were going to be a father." Della said in a low voice. "I figured you wouldn't accept Leo because I had cheated—" Andre interrupted.

"You didn't, I know you didn't."

get that you would have had doubts about him being yours."

tell me? If we

Leo the truth. I didn't want to lie to him so he would later hate me. I just told him that his father left before he was born. He didn't know that he existed." She sighed. "If he wanted to look for you in the future, I wouldn't have lied to him either. I

Andre couldn't imagine that.

him your name and that you share the same blue eyes and blonde hair. That you have the same habits, you both hate

Andre felt guilty.

can't imagine if I had missed more only for him to

you

don't?" He questioned. Della was quiet as the background music

do but it

her admit that she loved

don't want to feel anything. I tried really hard trust me, I did. These past seven years, I tried getting over you. Sometimes I'd like to think you have bewitched

hold the tears

I wish it wasn't." He said softly as

so many times and I was just so selfish I wouldn't let you until this finally happened and you got hurt and humiliated all because I was selfish. You made me happy but sometimes I think I was

and now was probably the time to

were too good for me. You were pure

co-workers told her that she was lucky and that it was a shame on her that she had no idea who the Levetté's were. She remembered when one of them googled Andre and showed her while they were on duty and Andre was seating in his booth in the corner. They had said that he had came earlier but they told him that her shift only started later on. He had to continue ordering just so he could seat there and wait for Della. He didn't know her name for the first couple of weeks. He just always described her as the pretty tan waitress and then everyone who worked there immediately knew that he meant Della. She had even given him a wrong number but felt bad when he came back the kept day, a smile on his face

he was known for.. and he only

I didn't want you to." She

knew that you were the girl I wanted

the past, what happened; happened." Della muttered. Andre turned

There was awkward silence.

reminded them that could have been them, if certain things had not turned out the

you something,

"Yes?" She replied.

a gleeful smile immediately graced

be able to tell everyone that I'm going to be a father. I just want to surprise everyone when they least expect it. I want to be with you when we first lay our eyes on our baby. I want Leo to have a sibling. He is lonely, I know but I

wanted to do this with someone by her side. It didn't mean she would love Leo

pregnant, Andre."

would want to make her pregnant and she didn't want that. She didn't

her. He admired her full breasts, flicking each bud as he tasted her lips. He felt he had been deprived off this delicacy for years. He had never wanted a woman the way he wanted Della. He dreamt and reminisced about their time together all the time. Even in meetings, he would say dream about his ex-wife and how she

He didn't waste anytime diving his girth deep in her. As always Della held onto his muscular lean shoulders, let out a whimper. It was his favorite reaction from her. She always seemed to be tighter and she could never get used to his size. He loved how she bit on his neck not being able to control herself as he gave her slow strokes pulling out of her delicate flower only to slam back into her with so much force it

in his