In My Desperate Time novel Chapter 179

When I shout this sentence, I’m stunned.

Soon, I feel very regretful and I want to take back what I said just now.

Frances has said that we’re just bedmates. The fact that I love him should not be known by him.

I tell him my secret that I love him. How should I face Frances?

I feel nervous and embarrassed.

I hang my head nervously, not knowing what to do. But I hear Frances sneer, "Jane, do you think I’ll believe you? I tell you there are a lot of women who like me. You are nothing to me."

I’m nothing to him.

I’m just one of Frances’ mistresses. When he likes me, I need to be around him. When he is tired of me, I will be abandoned mercilessly by him.

I’m relieved that he doesn’t take what I said seriously.

From now on, I will never confess to him. The fact I love Frances is going to be a secret forever and nobody will know it.

I put on my pants, walk out of the bathroom and go back to my room.

My clothes are so wet that I take them off and put on my nightdress.

Frances certainly won’t come here, and I can have a good sleep tonight. But as soon as I lie down, I couldn’t fall asleep. I have been thinking about Frances’s words. 

Frances will never fall in love with me. He loves Whitney.

The beautiful and noble woman is worthy of his love.

The next morning, when I go downstairs, I don’t see Frances. 

Old Mr. Louis is sitting on the sofa, watching the entertainment news of the day.

The stars’ affairs are being broadcast on TV: This star has a date with that star in private. This female star has an affair with that male star.

Staying with Frances for a long time, I can’t feel anything more when watching the entertainment news. 

Old Mr. Louis sees me coming down and waves to me.

"Jane, you made Hot and Sour Rice Noodles for me last night. To thank you, I bought you breakfast."

Old Mr. Louis is too polite. Well, I think he’s turning me down.