In My Desperate Time

“What’s this?” I ask.

The wind discomposes his hair.

He seems to stand in the wind for a long time.

“Medicine.”

He says and shoves the medicine to me. Then he leaves.

He drinks a lot, too, and probably calls his chauffeur to pick him up. And his car, parks right behind me, I don’t notice it.

Actually, I am thinking, if Frances Louis offers me an olive branch now, perhaps I will really say yes.

Tonight, I am so fragile. I Desperately need a harbor to dock my wandering heart.

I open the medicine bag and look inside. They are all anti-allergic medicine.

I smile sadly. I swallow the medicine without water.

Perhaps only the pain and suffering can support me to go on.

is another

My brother Frank

him, one is on the left and the other is on the right. They serve him like serving an empire. One peels orange for

There are full of snacks and fruits on the tea table. I

you come back? Aren't you studying abroad?” I ask Frank Noyes.

at me. He is

other students, so I can't go out to

says. Although the relationship there is found by Andrew Malan, his expenses abroad have been borne by me. My parents have always given him much money.

tuition have been paid by

mad. I grab Frank Noyes's phone, throw it on the tea table,

it to him again, “he is your brother, why are you so fierce? If he doesn’t want to study, then he can just quit. He lives faraway, and I can’t often see him. It’s better for him to

I know my parents spoil my brother. But it is still hard to

Now the whole family are living with me, it is clear that I should be able to

Restlessly, I turn to Frank Noyes and say coldly, “since you don't want to go to school, then go to work. You are 22 anyway.”

“No, dad and mon would support me.”

and mon? It’s me who would

going to squeeze on the couch, and I need to make a bed on the

there is only desperation lest in my