Forbidden Love

Today was one of those days where I couldn’t get out of bed, even though I had to go to work. I could go days without eating and I still wouldn’t get out of my bed. My phone could be going off and I would just let it ring.

It was like one of my “moods.” How I felt when I first got diagnosed with depression. I didn’t want to speak with anyone; I just stayed home and felt like ending it. One moment I was fine, happy even, and the next I was ready to give up.

My siblings all have a key to my house. Usually they’d come and comfort me but I just wanted to be alone. I know I could lose my job if I kept doing this. I just couldn’t help it. It wasn’t my fault. My boss supposedly understands, but who says she won’t find someone more capable?

I don’t have to take certain pills anymore. I got better. Antidepressants just made me feel…artificial, but they did help me in a weird twisted way.

I can’t stay in bed today. Not again.

I picked up my phone and called Liam, my best friend.

“Hey, what’s up?” he asked, answering the phone. “Don’t you have work right now?”

“I need you right now.”

The line went quiet for a few seconds. “I’ll be there in a few.” Then he hung up.

I checked my phone and saw the many messages coming from all my siblings, my parents, and from Eli. Ever since our first date two weeks ago, everything had been going perfectly. We went out on a few dates. Got breakfast in the morning, lunch in the afternoon. He would bring me flowers sometimes, too.

But a man like him makes me question everything. He had everything I wanted in a man, but he did everything almost perfectly. I don’t know if that’s a good thing or a bad thing.

I heard a knock on my door.

I really didn’t want to get up, but I needed him right now. I’ll just answer Elijah’s texts later, when I’m in a better mindset.

I opened the door, revealing a smiling Liam. He grinned and hugged me. He’s always so warm and comforting.

“You stink,” he teased. I scowled.

“I know. I’m gonna go take a shower.”

“Alright.” He nodded. “Go ahead. I’ll just try to do some work here or something.”

else, I left him to go take a shower. I don’t exactly know how long I’ve been in the shower. All I

wrapped my towel around my body. Before he could bang on the door again, I yanked the door open

on

in there for

dramatic. I’ve only been in

grabbing his phone to show

when I realized I have indeed

been going off for a while now. Some guy named

head. “I’ll answer him once I

change now. And

my room, I put on some plain black baggy clothes. I began slightly tidying up my room until my phone

Elijah: Are you okay?

are you not

hope I didn’t

want to

Elijah: Please answer

Elijah: What happened?

Do you want

you want me to

Elijah: Please answer.

sent him a message. Sorry, Elijah, for not answering your texts or calls. I’m just kind of sick. Sorry if

the room and went to my living room where everything looked more clean and organized. I saw Liam sitting on the couch, sitting with his leg on the coffee table and a laptop on his lap. When he sees me walk in the room, he

place? ‘Cause I sure

“Yeah, it looks

pizza,” he informed me. “It’ll be here in a few minutes. I also ordered sushi since I was sort of feeling it. We can watch a movie and talk,” he suggested. I agreed with the idea and we began searching for a movie to watch. Once we picked out the movie, someone knocked on the

ordered. Liam eventually paused the movie so we could have a talk about my mental state. He was worried, obviously, but I told him I was fine and I just needed a break, some time to relax. We resumed the movie until we heard another knock

well, we didn’t invite anyone else.

to go open the door whilst I stayed sitting on the couch.

I thought, I hope he

to see Liam with a stern look on his face while Elijah had a blithe