Fated For Lycan's Luna (Chloe and Blake) novel Chapter 158

Chloe's POV

How could it be like this?

It has been five years. For those five years, I did my best to forget everything. Desperately, I did my best to abandon my feelings, to the point where I foolishly fooled myself that I have put everything in the past.

All that sadness, the way my heart aches when I think of those painful memories I had with Blake… the way my soul still longed for him despite everything that happened… the way my body yearned for him to come closer so that I could touch his body heat…

All those feelings of happiness and belongingness that he taught me…

I thought I have forgotten Blake and made everything, all the memories we made together a colorful part of my past. I deluded myself that when I saw him, I would be able to put everything behind and only strive forward towards my goals.

Who knew that I was wrong… so horribly wrong…

"C’mon Chloe, bring it on. Right here and now, attack me with all your might! I am giving you a chance to attack me without any defense. Hurt me from all the pain and hatred I gave you all these years…” Blake opened his arms and looked straight at me, his taunts sounded like begging, as if me actually hurting him was a way to atone himself.

I collected all of my strength. I charged at him with all my might. Hurt him with all the pain and hatred that I felt? Didn't Blake know, my pain and hatred go as high as the heavens, to the point that I wanted to obliterate everything?

The ground shook from the explosion of my powers. Waves by waves, the vegetation that came in contact with my aura disintegrated in a fast manner, completely destroying the area around us.

Yet in this chaotic place, Blake remained serene. He watched me with gentle eyes and though a destructive force was about to hit him, he did not flinch.

He spread his arms wide open and closed his eyes calmly, ready to take no matter how dangerous my attack would be. And instead of putting defense to mitigate my attack, Blake gladly accepted it.

This image of his… one that was embracing death peacefully, made my heart tremble from pain. My body shivered in sadness as I stopped just before Aurora’s power touched his body.

How could this happen? Despite everything we have gone through… clearly… I couldn't hurt him…

This unspoken gamble between Blake and I…

I fully and utterly lost it…

Upon that realization, my eyes started feeling warm until soon, the first teardrop fell. And like a dam that was breached, my tears continuously fell down until I started wailing as I collapsed on the ground.

Five years might be short for others. But for me… it was painfully long. Everyday, I pushed my body to the brink, hoping that I would leave everything behind, hoping that the new would be reborn, forgetting everything and only focusing as the alpha of the Red Moon Pack.

'Don't tell me… all of my efforts before… were they all in vain?' I thought as my shoulders trembled. 'In front of Blake, all my hardwork is worthless?' I bit my lips until I tasted blood.