Clubrooms Diary

CADDIE  

May 12th 2018 

I draw near the club, limping. 

The doctor says I'm still not allowed to drive so I take the bus. Mal took the bus before me because I had to wait for my grandma to pick Jaxson up. She offered to bring me to work but I quickly declined her offer. She'd have a damn stroke if she knew where I worked. 

I hiss with pain, every time my foot hits the ground a little too harshly.

I refuse to take the painkillers I was prescribed by Amar's doctor as I'm still breastfeeding Jaxson. The last thing I need is Ace using that against me and making me out to be a pill-popping whore. So, the pain is something I'll have to endure a little longer. 

It doesn't help that it's close to zero degrees and I have nothing warm to wear. I still haven't been able to establish myself a worthy closet full of seasonal clothing after leaving Ace. The extra bit of money I have leftover I spend on Jaxson. I mean, the kid seriously won't stop growing. 

I round the corner and I watch as Amar leads Mal out of the club, they get into the SUV and Vanko closes the door behind them. My heart flutters at the sight of him and one side of my mouth curls up into a smile. I run my hands down my clothes and limp towards him. I make it halfway across the car park when a patrol car stops in front of me. 

Fucking Ace...

I roll my eyes heavenward, wishing the mother fucker would get himself shot while he was on duty. Would definitely make my life a lot easier. But, even I know miracles don't happen that way and this isn't a fairy tale story. I watch him exit the car, slipping a retractable baton into his belt. He walks around the car and sits on the bonnet, crossing his arm, trying to intimidate me. 

"What is it now Ace?" I sigh out loud. 

"What I always want Cadz." He narrows his eyes at me. 

"You need to stop wanting what you CAN'T have." 

my son too. You can't

wanna fucking bet I can't?" My

curl over and die before I let you

it against his open hand. He steps closer towards me until his shit infused breath fans my

his tongue along the top of his teeth, with his eyes smiling back

You always get your goons to

I will." He clicks his

reaches out and

pain runs up my

sick fuck!" My voice

of him beating and raping me cross my mind. My bottom

I wipe the angry tears using the

the heartache across my face.

fucking BEAT ME and RAPED ME!" I cry

turning his eyes into a shade of dark grey. The storms about to hit and I instantly regret

I scream as pain circulates

" I scream out again as another

his arm out, flicking his wrist,  opening the baton until it locked in place. He hit me in the stomach, my thigh, and across my back. I fell to my knees crying and screaming, pleading for him to stop. I curl myself up into a fetal position, using my hands to shield my head. I think of

fucking whore. A disgusting, useless bitch who doesn't deserve MY

me. I wait for the next blow of pain to hit me like a freight truck. But, there's

Caddie...!!" I peek through my fingers to see Mal sprinting across the carpark.