Camp Closeted

"You don't look so happy to see me." Tristan cautiously raised an eyebrow at me, his lips forming a thin smirk. He spoke again, noticing my continuous silence. "What's wrong?"

I sighed before replying, my eyes shyly looking around. "Do you think you can drop me off back at my cabin?"

He just momentarily blinked at my softened voice, then beginning to slowly nod. "Y-yea, of course, let's go." He gestured towards the parking lot as the sleeves from my oversized sweater completely covered my hands.

What the hell was Romeo thinking saying that to me? Is he that twisted? "Thank you." I told Tristan, making him glance at me with a warm smile as we walked together.

"It's my pleasure." He responded, burying his hands into his pockets, causing a wave of awkward silence to come over between us. "So are you still mad at me?"

"Huh?" I questioned. "W-why would I be mad at you?"

Tristan's cheeks all of a sudden began to burn into a brighter shade. "You don't remember?"

Instead of replying, I just remained quiet and shook my head no. "I don't."

"We kissed at that party since you thought I was Jesse at first. Sounds silly because we both completely look the opposite, but it still happened." He spoke anxiously, carefully examining my face for any changes in expression.

I just closed my eyes and sighed. "Tristan, I'm an awful boyfriend." I blurted out, stopping in my tracks.

"You were drunk and probably high from secondhand smoke, why would you blame yourself?" He looked down at me from his tall figure as I felt embarrassed.

"Because I knew the repercussions! I ignored it and now here I am being guilty for being such  an awful boyfriend to Jesse." I whined as he just casually laughed.

"Well what happened, happened. The only thing we can do now is just move on. If I knew that you thought you were kissing Jesse instead of me I would've immediately stopped you. I just thought you genuinely wanted to kiss me." He nervously chuckled, my eyes meeting his, almost being blinded by its usually light blue hue.

"I'm sorry Tristan." I spoke sincerely as we continued to walk towards his car. "I really am."

"It wasn't that serious to me." He smirked. "Don't think too much of it."

After getting inside Tristan's truck, I couldn't help but begin to have on a small smile. His truck still looked familiarly vintage as ever and I loved everything about it. "So." He let out as he sat on his car seat. "You and Jesse huh? What do you guys do together?"

Hearing Jesse's name for some reason made my cheeks blush. His cherry red lips, his midnight hair, his snowy chiseled body, all coming together in my head. "Hello?" Tristan deeply half-laughed, capturing my attention once again.

"S-sorry." I quickly snapped out of it. "Well, we dont really do anything besides, like, you know." I shyly spoke.

Tristan turned on the car engine as prepared to drive. "Well I apologize for my lack of skills in being a psychic, but no, I don't know." I laughed loudly.

"We just you know, hang out." I shrugged.

Tristan seemed surprised as he drove the car back from its parking, and then towards the road. "Hang out huh. I'm surprised you guys haven't done anything crazy considering how much of a horny dog Jesse is."

"Tristan." I bit my lip before speaking. "Is it true there are stories about Jesse in Brazen?" I asked, making him worriedly glance at me.

"Well yea, I mean there's stories of everyone it just depends on what kind of stories you're talking about." He talked, pursing his lips at me.

"You know what I mean." I spoke carefully, almost anxious to hear what was going to happen:

Tristan slightly squinted his eyes at me and sighed. "Well yea there's quite a few actually since he did used to go there." Tristan dryly responded, making me slightly furrow my brows down at him.

"Are they bad?"

He just shrugged. "Well it depends on how you look at it. Jesse just used to have a lot of sexual relations with most of the guys there. If a person wants to have crazy amounts of sex while still being safe and not being hurtful to anyone then I couldn't care less. I only started to have an issue with it when we dated and he still couldn't keep it in his pants."

I looked down, keeping my brows furrowed down in deep thought. "Do you think he's still like that?"

"I really wouldn't know. But I genuinely think he has changed. Him being sexually active at Brazen was a very long time ago so I wouldn't stress about it if I were you." He answered, keeping his eyes intently on the road.

I slightly tensed up as my phone momentarily vibrated. My face slightly wrinkling the second I saw Jesse's new text.

How telepathic of him..

I couldn't help but bite my lip as my cheeks began to burn up. This sudden rush of feelings felt unexplainably good as my body began to feel heated.

Jesse just seems too good to be true..

"Benny I don't know what I'm wearing for tomorrow." I let out as his eyes widened, his fingers fluttering at me.

"Mmm!" He took a huge sip off his fruit shake before replying. "Okay well I don't know what the theme is for tomorrow's bonfire but I'm pretty sure no one is gonna care what you wear just as long as you look hella hot."

"How do I do that?" I raised an eyebrow at him.

back to the

as conversations in the cafeteria began to

his

you don't mind me asking,

Benny raised an eyebrow at

laugh as I rolled my eyes at

that's awkward, you know?" I nodded. "Sex is

"Oh."

me a suspicious look. "Why? Is Jesse peer pressuring you to have

know how to say this, but like, I think it's actually the other way around." I nervously laughed as Benny's mouth

that?" He teased, tilting his head at me. "Wouldn't it be your

shyly nodded.

"And you're sure about doing it with Jesse? Like he

my own voice

shit." He nodded in shock. "I feel like a mom. I would never imagine us ever talking about stuff like this when I first

what do I

Jesse and what I've heard about him, submissive to him or not, all you have to do is ask him or hint about it and next thing you know, you guys are already doing it." He

you heard about him?" I asked, moving my face to whisper

"All ima say is

do wanna do it with Jesse I can't help but obviously still feel intimidated." I shyly spoke, running a hand through my hair. "A-and hearing how Jesse is super experienced with something like this

straighten out everything you're curious about." He spoke calmly. "Everything will be alright, you

"Right."

to think with your brain, not your heart. I know

felt my breath hitch.

Jesse's shirtless self adorably ravaged through the picnic basket he had set up for us.

raise an eyebrow at him.

before I could've responded, he had already dramatically moaned, rolling his eyes back at me as he ate. "You know how long it's been since the last time I ate watermelon? Thank

I grabbed the slice from him. "Thanks."

the rays coming from

of relaxing silence, I finally decided to speak up. "Jesse."

muscles flexing as he laid back down

at him rapidly made heat rush through my body. His dewy skin, his ocean eyes, his chiseled body, his obsidian hair, everything

mouth, his face now looking slightly annoyed. "No,

"No, it's fine."

"Micah."

not even

is important

I-never mind. It's honestly just so stupid

say stupid shit out loud." His deep voice became subtly more softer now. "Just tell me. You know you can tell me

returning his deep tempting gaze. After taking the time to slowly inhale and exhale with my eyes closed, I finally gained enough courage to say

what?" He asked, genuinely sounding like

know." I slightly moved my head forward, hoping to any possible deity in the galaxy to help Jesse understand what

Jesse chuckled, getting himself up off the grass to reach in for some more food in the basket. "I really don't know. You have to be more specific Micah." He then pulled

What am I

yet again. "You have to tell me or else I'm gonna keep bothering you

say it." My cheeks burned as I felt my heart begin

slower and more sultry in delivery as I watched him eat another strawberry.

of a sudden gulped as I felt my chest heave in efforts to get used to my rising breathing pattern. "I-uh." My voice

you want to do, I'll most likely want to do it also."

I was about to scream

raised an eyebrow at

the bonfire thing with you tomorrow." I lied, breaking eye contact

let out a sigh of relief as he continued speaking. "I thought we already agreed that we were gonna do it together. Is

awkwardly nodded. "Yea." I sniffed. "That's all." I quickly reached into the

look, I have a question for you." He began to speak, making me tense up to prepare myself. "We're both guys, meaning we probably relate to each other

nodded, chewing onto

before speaking again. "So, you know the struggle of getting hard as fuck out of nowhere and not being able to

should, but for some

hair perfectly falling onto his face. "What? Wait what the

him as he stared at me like I was completely crazy. "It only ever happens in

head at me. "Are you like

alien. That kind of thing just makes me nervous and you already

like seen anything that turned you on so much to the point where you just wanted to orgasm?" What

you. "No." I lied. Obviously that picture he sent me when he was at the gym made me feel some type of way