Caged Between the beta and alpha
Chapter 34
34. Renji
RAVEN
“Well first of all, you all acted stupidly. I’ll start with that idiot of mine.” She shook her head. “I get that he doesn’t want to share. Then, instead of running away, he should have stayed here and come up with a solution, but he’s always been the passive one… Even when they were younger and both he and Kiara wanted something, he’d let her have it. I guess in this situation, he couldn’t really just give you up but also didn’t want to cause damage, and so he left. I personally think seeing that you two didn’t even move on probably just confused him even more, and he now thinks Damon has lost his chance so has decided he will take what he wants. What irritates me is that you aren’t an item.”
I remember Liam saying; ‘you two can do whatever you want”. That’s a good point. He did give us a chance in a way… Even if i t was in anger and bitterness.
“Damon, his heart is in the right place, but by playing the lenient passive one he’s giving both you and Liam the impression that you aren’t that special to him, and I won’t deny that his relationship with Robyn doesn’t help his case. H e said to Liam that he’d wait, but what if Liam never changes his mind? Then what? I know Liam is calmer than Elijah, but h e is still his father’s son. They are possessive and stubborn, they won’t budge from their decision.”
That’s true too… Like Liam is fighting for me now, but Damon i s still taking the back seat, and that deep down does hurt. Aunty Red was right. I did feel it inside, even though I knew his reason. He’s trying to diffuse a bigger problem.
“And you, Raven, just waiting for men who lack brain cells and think with their dicks rather than their minds? This isn’t the 15th century. We women take what we want, know what we want, and own it. You can’t string them both along without being clear about it. I understand you want it to work, but how? How will it work? It’s not only the emotional aspect, it’s the sexual aspect. Will you give them a day each? Will you all b e together? I don’t personally see that happening considering how Liam can’t even deal with the fact that you’re mated to Damon. But things could change. What is your plan? HOW were you going to make this work?”
Her words rang in my mind and I realised how true they were. I kept thinking ‘poor me’ and feeling sorry for myself. Talking about making it work, but never about how it was going to work…
Urgh! I feel so stupid right now.
“You’re right… I never really thought of it, I just wanted everyone to be happy, without even thinking how.”
“This is reality, and as much as two mates sounds hot or great, I don’t think we realise that there’s so much more to it mentally. We are beings with complex emotions. Ultimately, i na two mates to one woman situation, there will be jealousy and issues throughout. Even if it works out, you have to remember that there will be issues that will pop up and you have to be ready to diffuse them because you are mated to them both. Just because Liam might be acting entitled it does not mean you should be giving him more. What if when things work out, if they do, he always expects you to be his first? At his beck and call whenever he wants?”
Damn, I didn’t even think of that… This was hard…
“And what if it doesn’t work? Who will you choose? And if you can’t choose, ultimately, will you reject them both? You can’t let them fight over you, you will have to be the one to make that decision then. We both know they can’t be strung along forever. This pack needs its Alpha, its Beta, and it needs you. I want you all happy, and regardless of what decision you three make, you have to make sure that everyone is treated equally. You cannot favour Liam over Damon even if he is an Alpha. Both are men who deserve equal respect and love. If you want i t to work with both, then I’m hoping tonight you were planning on having Damon in here.” She winked, smirking at me.
I blushed, embarrassed.
have boundaries, make them clear. But also, I think you being uncertain about what you want doesn’t help. Take the reins; they are your mates.” “I understand. Thanks for your insight, Aunty Red… I’m glad you gave me your opinion. It’s really given me a different viewpoint on it.” “That’s what I’m here
Sadness washed over her and she looked at me sympathetically.“Your parents never liked talking about it, I’m surprised they even told you.” She replied, looking out the window.
The sun shone on her vibrant red hair, she looked stunning and she seemed to be lost in a memory from long ago.
“Your brother was two years senior to you, but he was extremely ill. He had leukaemia, and even his werewolf healing ability wasn’t enough to heal him. The doctors advised having another child, that the chances of a sibling being a bone marrow match would be potentially higher. However, his health deteriorated fast, and even when you were born prematurely…” She hesitated, looking at me keenly. “What else do you know?”
“Nothing, but I would appreciate it if you tell me the full story, Mom and Dad won’t ever tell me.” I said quietly.
“Your father-”
“He blamed me for his death, so I think I deserve to know Aunty.” I said softly, hoping she listened.
She frowned at that, clenching her jaw.