Caged Between the beta and alpha
Chapter 21
Emotions & Promises
RAVEN
I reached over and took his hand. I don‘t care what anyone thought, I didn’t feel guilty about Liam‘ right now either, this was one friend to another. I needed to know, before we had this sit down, I wanted to know what was inside Damon‘s head, because I knew he wouldn‘t be able to be completely honest in front of Liam.
Damon stared down at our hands, before turning towards me and placing his mug down.
He blew out a breath before nodding.
“I messed up. Unlike Liam, who stayed true to you, I didn‘t… I feel fucking guilty for that, and it‘s no excuse…”
“But?” I asked softly, sensing his turmoil.
He was struggling to say what was deep in his heart.
‘Speak to me however you find easier.‘ I mind linked.
He looked into my eyes before looking down at his hands.
‘That night of the blood moon… I was scared I would lose my best friend, someone I considered a brother, my Alpha, whom i twas my duty to serve. I respect him and I would die for him…‘
The pain in his words squeezed at my own heart painfully.
Why did Selene do this?
‘I‘ve always loved you; you were always the warmth of our group. Kiara was the heart, but you were always that bright flame that wrapped us all in your warmth. I always thought… you know, maybe Kiara might be my mate and you would be Liam‘s. He’s always loved you after all.“.
He looked into my eyes, I gave him an encouraging nod to continue. He sighed heavily, looking down at our hands once more.
‘But after Dad died, I started seeing you fucking differently and with it, it became more… There was a small part of me that was greedy and hoped that maybe you might be mine. I know I was fucking wrong to wish like that when Liam has–‘
His words had sent a storm of emotions through me, and with i t, his pain was so obvious. He nodded and continued.
- 2.
doesn‘t want to share… and with his Beta? Why should he? I’m like the third wheel in this entire equation that shouldn‘t be here.‘ He swallowed and his grip on my hand tightened. But still… I wish we could make it work.’ He said quietly, looking straight into my eyes. “Me too… You are not a third wheel. Don’t ever feel like you are not enough or that you are below someone else.” I replied firmly, so happy that he had opened up to me. Al‘s words rang in my mind once again, making my heart skip a beat. “What is it?” He asked softly. I shook my head, and he tilted his. “Now you can‘t go around having double standards, beautiful. I shared, your turn…” “I‘m just… scared… What if Liam doesn‘t want to listen?” I asked, the fear I had been trying to suppress for so long coming to the surface. He raised my hand
a plan, but I get to choose the
“That isn‘t fair!”“Life isn‘t fair, dear boy.” I said, smiling as he chuckled.
Please, Selene, let stuff work out… Please…
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Training was over and I felt exhausted. I had ended up falling asleep at Damon‘s, waking up to find that I was in his bed, but he wasn‘t there. I came downstairs to see he had slept on the sofa. I had thanked him before rushing from the house to get t o training on time.”
I had just returned to the packhouse when I saw Liam leaning against the wall near my door.
“Hey, you didn‘t come home last night, everything ok?”
My heart skipped a beat, and although I shouldn‘t feel bad,
something about those sharp cerulean eyes watching me made my heart thump.
“Yeah, I was at a friend‘s and ended up falling asleep watching a movie.” I said, praying that Damon‘s scent wasn’t all over m
A prayer that was in vain. The moment I opened the door to m y room, moving past him, I heard him inhale and knew he had caught the scent. His eyes blazed a deep magnetic blue and the surge of power that rolled off of him made my heart thump.
“Damon‘s.” He stated, his voice full of such anger that I wasn‘t sure if it was smart to speak.