Be My Mate

Sabrina's POV

With everyone enjoying the feast and celebration of my brother's coronation, bodies gone and the castle running normally again as if there was never a massacre, the werewolves carried on. Enjoying the bottomless drinks and rare meat on display.

Josey overindulged on the champagne, who knows what her tolerance levels are now being a hybrid and all. My brother stayed alert, as always. With the attempt on his life, I doubt he'll sleep with both eyes closed.

"Why are you standing up here, looking down at us? Still think someone will try to kill Cj?" Maximus asks. His scent wafting through my nose, opening up all the memories I buried deep in my brain.

"I just need to breath. Too many emotions in one sitting. It us overwhelming.." I say turning to face my first chosen mate.

He stayed shirtless but was kind enough to wear a new pair of dress pants, thank the goddess. Standing here with a naked ex mate, never mind our animalistic ways, would be awkward. How would I explain it?

I had changed in to a different dress. Still gold but silky and flowy, less dramatic but definitely elegant. The problem is, had he been naked this would've been awkward because I'm commando. Right? Oh well.

"I had a chance to talk to your mate. He's not that bad actually.." Max tells me, which has me raising my eyebrows at him.

"Not that bad? In what way?" I ask, completely curious to find out what he meant when he said that. Although the other half of my brain was telling me that he was trying to make conversation.

"I mean he's an okay guy. I can't fault him, goddess knows I tried. We all want to fault him, I'm sure Xander wants to." Max says to me and I chuckle.

"I wanted to fault him too when we met but he surprised me. He's still a virgin waiting on his mate and when I told him we could never work because I see myself more of an earthling, he came down to earth to learn our ways. His patience, I mean this guy is just... I can't fault him. He's also easy on the eyes." I say before taking a sip of my first and only glass of warm champagne.

I've been holding on to this glass for probably an hour, lost in my thoughts.

"Yeah, we all didn't miss the tongue war you both had in the middle of all the fighting." Max says disapprovingly.

"Yeah, Josey gave me a mouthful but you don't get to disapprove. You don't get to anything." I say, turning my entire body to face him.

"I know, I know.." Max says with his arms raised in surrender.

"I'm an ex Kimberley. I'll forever be jealous." He says, his body leaning on the railing as he watches my sister try to dance.

say as I turn to look down at the crowd too. We stay silent while standing next to each other while the memories we shared together played over and over in my head. Even if he stayed the perfect chosen mate, I'd

had a mate, a true mate that was chosen

And then Xander....

My poor Xander.

her Alexandria. A name I chose because it was fitting, a

says which confuses me.

sure what to say to

Max walk away and I figured this was my only chance to get you alone, to talk." Xander

you

and I nod my head yes. Well I wasn't thinking it but

shake off this gnawing at the back of my head. You, your scent that's still lingering

It's weird for me

seeing Josey sit and laugh with her ex mates. Still having to smell your scent back at home, seeing you now and having to watch you kiss whatshisface, that's painful. I still want you, goddess knows I still want you but I want her too and

sorry you had to watch that. I got so caught up in the moment, I lost my senses

fire

been fighting it longer than I have. It's a losing battle and you're stuck stuck with him,

because I'm tired, so tired of fighting all the time. I've lost you already, so why fight it? I'd rather lose you to someone else than watch you die because of me. I can handle that pain." I say as a tear

have different mates. I guess we should find comfort in knowing that we tried and it was perfect for a short time. We had time to be together and those

Cj asks walking towards

turn to

"Yes.." I say.

at the

as he pats

before leaving us. I watch him walk away, my brain playing Celine Dion, my heart will go on because again, he was walking

Cj says to me and I

your face! He's just down there drinking whiskey." He tells me

I'm going to love two men all my

in the end, there'll only be

say and Cj