Be My Mate

Sabrina's POV

Standing outside of Xander's changing room. I know he is inside, as I can hear his heartbeat and I'm right outside his door, cowardly hiding my scent so he can't tell that it's me, standing out here

a stalker.

How do I even look at him? How do I face him after what I have just been told?

The door opens to reveal a shirtless Xander. He looks down at me, at my tear stained face as he gently grabs my hand.

"Sabrina? What's wrong baby?" He asks me. I throw my arms around him as I start to sob again.

Xander stays silent, holding me tightly as I broke down, my insides were at war. Even though Athena and I love Xander, it was no secret that my body called for Aiden. I fight it day in and day out, happy to do so as long as I did not have outside obstacles fighting me too.

'They aren't wrong though. You are not above Sacred law and if you don't obey it, why should they?' Athena says to me.

No, they are right. I was so mad at Percy for going against the very law I am fighting.

I admit, I've been the world's biggest hypocrite. I just love Xander and I don't really embrace change, I can't embrace it and can I be blamed though? I never get to enjoy the pleasures I'm given long enough before they are taken away from me.

I pull away from Xander and look him in the eyes.

"We need to talk and you won't like what I have to say. I don't like it but I don't know what to do and I need your calm nature and logic around this. I need alpha Xander and my mate at the same time." I say and he leads me in to his room before closing the door behind him.

"What's wrong Sabrina?" He asks again.

"I just had a conversation with my mother and Josey." I say as I scratch the back of my head.

Xander looks at me, his face not revealing much.

"Xander, they won't accept us. With me going against sacred law and staying with you. I feel so defeated, so drained. I did everything they wanted me to do and now they want to take you away from me. I don't know what to do." I blurt out really fast.

"Hold on, say that again but really slowly." Xander says to me, squeezing my hand.

"They say we can't be together." I say and he doesn't seem shocked. Xander let's go of my hand and steps back from me.

"We knew this would happen Sabrina. It's actually pretty stupid to think we could get away with it." Xander says to me. He turns around, his back to me.

"Sacred law. How dare we think we are anywhere above it? I know you know I've been struggling with you being someone else's mate." Xander says to me.

"I know...." I say sadly. I've known for a long time.

my head, I can't help but struggle with the decision we made to stay together. I know I said I'd rather die than lose you..." Xander says to me

his eyes to fight back the tears that were

can not survive it. I refuse to survive losing another

Xander do you hear what you are saying?" I ask and he

the heavenly realm, taking Adrastos with you, who will I stay with?" He asks. I don't respond

was no way of him visiting, finding a way

first mate. I loved again and goddess that's a great feeling but

The only way that will happen is if I die, otherwise there is no way I am letting you

to my knees and break out in sobs. I didn't

scent pull me up and in for a hug. As soon

My dear brother.

I'm so sorry Sabrina." Cj says to me and I continue to

says walking in on Cj

away from me and turns to

before you both say things you can never take back. Everyone else is against your union, don't be at odds with each

well Sabrina." He says before walking out

Xander and he's just

I did this to us and now I've put

love anyone else, I don't want to be with anyone else." He says to me as he walks closer to

chose to give you my heart. That's different. No goddess or pull forced me to be with you, I chose you and I will do it over and over again because I love you. I want to be selfish with you, I want to love you alone."

could be a fire and burn me and I'd still hold on. Which is exactly what's happening with us. You were never mine but I got the chance to be with you and hold you every night in my arms. The moon goddess herself, how dare I want anything else?" Xander confesses

He was right.

why I was willing to go against the very law we all grew

want this

think a love like ours will

planned. The imprinting, my love for

lifetime, where you are not immortal and you don't have to carry the world on your shoulders, we will find a way to each other." He says and I

planning on bringing you to the ball and now this. Now I'm told if I stay with you, people from the heavenly will find it disrespectful

He asks and I let out

all the girl's talk about up in the heavenly

I'm standing in the way of true love. I'm just

You are my first love!" I

fucks sake! The daughter from the first family so why can't I change the rules? I want to be with you and only you.." I say in

law is in place for a reason and you can't change the rules

the time to be the good guy. They wanted him dead but instead he

with this? Knowing there is no rejection in the heavenly realm...