Alpha Loren

"You fucking shot him in the foot," I said about half an hour later. "He's not gonna be able to walk for months."

"They weren't taking us seriously," Luca replied.

"How do you even know how to use a gun?" I asked.

"I've been doing this a long time, Ells," he told me.

"Couldn't you have shot Guillermo?" I asked. "He was clearly the leader."

"You don't fuck around with Guillermo unless you want death."

"Says the one that held him in a headlock with a gun to his head," I muttered.

"That's justifiable. He had you."

"So now what?" I asked looking out into the empty desert.

"We go to Miami. Drop of the shipment and then I'll take you to the airport," he said.

"Are you not coming with me?" I asked.

"I have to go back to Mexico," he told me. 

"Why? It's dangerous," I said.

"We pissed Guillermo off and he's not just gonna let it go," he explained. " I can't go back to him after this unless I can get approval from the boss."

"Luca-" I began disheartened that he wasn't going to come with me to Paris.

"I'm sorry Els but duty calls. I've got to do this for the pack and then I promise I'll meet you in Paris."

"Why can't I come with you?" I asked.

"Because if you thought Guillermo was bad, you do not want to meet the boss," he said. "And I can't risk your life again."

began

getting on a plane to Paris. And I'm going to deal

my seat

I want to risk it or not," I said. "This sounds incredibly dangerous. But I could do with an adventure."

somewhere peaceful and

reflection is not what I need," I replied. "Time away from Leo? Yes. Time to

moment that you

smile and

combination of the glow from stars and the moon and

he told me not to be sad for too long and to live my life. This is honouring his wishes.

wish was for you to forgive him?" Luca questioned looking away from the road a second to give me an eyebrow raised look.

me to be happy. He denied it but he knew that however bad of a man Leo can be, he is still my mate and I can't help loving him and I can't be happy without

he knew that he'd be sentencing his own sister to

Leo has hurt and all the others Leo will hurt but it still doesn't add up. He saw Leo as the evil, ruthless, murderous, merciless monster that tried to kill our father and ruined our childhood but never the good side. Not the side that is father to his eight nieces and nephews. Not the man that does everything he can to help and protect the people in his pack- including me. Not even as the man that no longer invade other packs and takes their people and lands but sends relief and aid when another pack has attacked them. Maybe he killed Connor out of fury but maybe it was because he was willing to give up the stability of our relationship to protect his pack from Connor's threat. Because Connor wasn't innocent in this. I love my brother but what he was doing was wrong and was going to

of quiet with just the sound of the engine and the wheels

but it sounds to me

yet," I replied

is too dangerous anyway and you need to talk this out with Leo," he said. "As Gamma of the pack, I shouldn't be taken the Luna

around," I said as he began to slow. "Luca no. I want to do this and I know how to survive. I'm like a

I'm sorry, Els. I should never have got you

no

what

find

will once I know

as stern as it was then and it unsettled me. His tone too was harsher and he held the steering wheel firmly, not showing

I loved him

take you to the airport and put you on a

not going

Rome, London. I don't care

safe for me. Especially not in Italy or anywhere in Europe even because of the fact that I am at the top of the Mafia's wanted list." I said. "And no. I'm staying here. With you. I'll keep you company and you can keep me company. The last thing I want is to be alone."

want is to be dead," he replied. "This