Alpha Loren

October 16th

During breakfast, Leo was still very quiet.

It unsettled me.

"You're still thinking about what Antonio and Blair said, aren't you?" I asked.

"How long are you going to make me wait?" he asked leaning back and sighing.

I shrugged.

"And why?" he questioned, "So you don't want to please me because I'm a 'bad' person. Are you nervous about losing your virginity too?"

I swallowed.

"It's normal to be nervous because it's your first time and that won't change whether we do it now or in ten years," he said. "But it's not just the sex you're nervous about."

I looked down at my plate.

"It makes it real, doesn't it?" he asked.

I didn't move.

"Right now we haven't finished the mating process. We have a connection but it's not solidified yet. But as soon as you sleep with me you are well and truly my mate. No way out. That scares you, doesn't it?"

I shrugged.

"The thought of being eternally bound to you, Alpha Loren, is unsettling," I replied. "I can't imagine loving you...you're dark and immoral...and what's a life and partnership without love?"

"You think that not completing the mating process means you have an escape route?" he asked.

He then looked at me with a raised eyebrows and stony expression.

"Because it doesn't. Whether you like it or not, you are stuck with me so you might as well enjoy your time here," he said. 

"Enjoy my time here?" I asked, "I can't just stand by and support you as your Luna as you kill people."

He clenched his jaw.

"So I will not become your Luna until you become someone I can support.  I am not going to give in, Leonardo. If you ever want that sex or that baby, you will make an effort to be a good person."

He let out a short laugh, "You're gonna bribe me into doing what you want? You know, my father is right. You are messing me around."

"I'm doing what is right," I said, "I'm fighting the evil in you."

"You're defying nature," he replied.

"Well you said it yourself...I'm unconventional."

I then folded my arms and glared at him.

"But your wolf isn't," he said, glaring straight back, "I don't know if it was growing up a rogue, being raised by Nicolos Jones or living in the human world that messed you up but your wolf will never be able to resist her mate. And that is your weakness."

"Fuck you," I growled.

"Yes, please do."

"If you are so desperate for sex why don't you just sleep around again?! It's not like you saved yourself for your mate anyway!" I shouted getting to my feet.

"I was a virgin at 17 too."

"So its okay for you but if it was me, you would have murdered someone," I spat.

"You can murder every girl I've ever slept with if you like," he said. "But you wouldn't."

"I'd be there for years," I replied beginning to walk away.

"You're really gonna get upset that I'm not a virgin?"

"How would you like it if I went out tonight and slept with another man?" I said pulling my hand out of his hand and marching to the door.

"You would never do that," Leo growled coming closer. 

"What makes you so sure?" I asked as he pushed me up against the wall.

"Because you know I would kill them without a second thought and you don't want that blood on your hands. There's another one of your weaknesses, Ella. Remorse."

I clenched my teeth together and shoved his chest.

In response, he grabbed my wrist and pinned them to the wall.

"I'm going to the Southern territory tonight on business," he said, "When I get home in two days, we will mate."

He then slowly took his hands off me and stepped back before he turned on his heel and walked out of the kitchen, leaving my slightly shake and alone.

Four hours later at 3:00 pm, Mateo arrived and Leo left pretty much without saying a word.

"What's got his knickers in a twist?"Mateo asked.

"He wants to mate, I don't," I said.

"Why not?" He said getting a carton of orange juice out the fridge, "He's your mate, he's attractive, he's-"

"Because he's Leonardo Loren and I have more respect for myself than to just let such a bad man have me."

Mateo nodded, "Are you sure you're not overthinking it? It's just sex."

with a serial killer who I consequentially become the Luna

pin

I said with a

asked, turning to me and examining my

can make my

God," Mateo cringed, "I didn't need

a couple of days and he wants sex, I'm worried my wolf won't resist him,"

"I see," Mateo said.

as he found some leftover pancakes in the fridge, "Do they not feed you

living with 4 brothers you learn to take whatever you can get," He said getting some chocolate sauce to put on the pancakes. "And Leo always has great food in his fridge. Do you want anything

just ate," I said causing him to stare

"And?..." He said.

hungry," I

yourself," He chirped whilst walking up to the TV with a bag of popcorn. "Let's watch a movie to take your mind off you're issue. What does Leo has in this mystery box of DVDs then...Horror, horror,horror, horror...a comedy?...no wait it's a horror, another horror, yet another horror and finally some romantic high

a

label on the back of the DVD. "Right...that makes more sense." He said laughing. "So what do

but since the only other option is...My Senior Prince...I don't think we really have a choice," I said.

movie?" Mateo asked. "I would recommend The Axe Massacre or Alone in

both sound equally terrifying so whichever one you want," I

the DVD in the player. "Are you sure you want

that can happen?"

finds out I let you watch an horror movie and he massacres me with an

I'm not going

anyone asks it was your

burrowed into Mateo's shoulder and I had my

point of watching a film if you are going to shut your eyes?" Mateo asked. I cautiously opened them only to see

Prince now!"

a bit when things got really scary but never anything to touchy touchy. I guess he was scared Leo would suddenly pop his head through

I said causing Mateo to

I was still shaken by the movie. I shuddered as I

out there.

be," I said, "Logan Wilson

crazy dude that Leo killed the other night?"

shock to

him!?"

where he went when we were in

I not meant to say that?" Mateo said looking a bit guilty. "I'm sorry I thought you knew. I didn't mean to upset

he was an absolute twat I'm just surprised that he's actually dead and that Leo didn't tell me..." I

established there is no way Alpha Logan Wilson could possibly break into this house are you

the staircase. It was dark up there and I

walk me to

rolled his eyes,

to the bedroom safely and got into bed quite quickly and tried to get to sleep quickly. I didn't want to dwell on the thought of the horror movie or Logan. I kind of me wanted Leo to cuddle and comfort me

October 17th

He was always warm and snuggling into him this

Mateo took me

and although Mateo was right beside me I

a lake that glistened and sparkled in the most

brothers were here, someone would have been

cruel. Do you not see that thin

Leo when he was in a good mood except Mateo was

we returned for lunch Mateo taught me to make a type of Italian bread which was delicious and after that, Lia came over and we watched her dreadful chick flick and it was dreadful just to

says he's already on his way back," Mateo

I said, a whole mix

last night but equally the words and

good?"

and

thrilled and I wanted to see him too but I couldn't help but be worried about the very thing she

hours later and

Leo asked,

I replied,

he said hugging

before he leant down to

like me to make you some coffee?" I asked quickly as I felt myself begin to be drawn into

nodded silently and

him the cup of steaming coffee, I brought it over to the table where

he placed his arm around my waist and guided me to sit

did you do

movies, made pizza.

he took a sip of the coffee.

on edge," he observed wrapping his

"Nothing," I replied quickly.

few minutes later, the mug was empty

the mug in the sink,"

great relief, he let me go. But as I placed the mug in the washing up

waist before he flipped me around and pressed his lips hard

into me, the warmth I'd been craving all day, I enjoyed

Oh shit. 

and sat me on the counter as he got between my legs, gripping my

trembled slightly on his chest, trying to ignore the feeling of excitement deep inside

weakly as his hands squeezed

to your wolf," he said in my ear before his

deep,

lips softly graced my mark and I accidentally let out an uncontrollable

hand behind my head and kissed me again, pressing me up

shot down my spine and

smiled at my pleasure as he leant down further to kiss the crook of my neck. His hand then pressed into my lower back as his other engulfed my neck with one huge hand and pulled

was rough and fast but every kiss was powerful and carefully designed to sent