A Mysterious She-wolf

Kavi's POV

Can you be happy and sad at the same time?

Yes, here I am!

Logan and Surya have found their mates the day after the war and they were glued to each other. Madhu and Vibha were friends from childhood and they belong to Crimson Moon pack who happened to meet Logan and Surya in a pack festival. Madhu is Logan's mate; Vibha is Surya's mate. These two females were so sweet but possessive at the same time.

The females were too fast to apply for transfer. They met each other parents and everyone was so happy. My friend and little cousin had found their other half and they are going to live their life happily. Surya privately apologised for his earlier behaviour and also stated how he and his wolf was so much in love with Vibha and her wolf. But his wolf and he still feel protective of me and we feel bonded in some way. His mate understood about it without much drama but I could sense a hint of possessiveness in her eyes whenever Surya talk to me. I noticed Logan's orange scent mixed with strawberries and noticed his mark on Madhu's neck. The way they look at each other with so much love makes me very happy. Surya being new to this, he is taking their relationship slow.

And my mom was staying home as much as possible and she was trying to compensate all these years by giving more attention to me. But I asked her to behave normally after a day and she agreed. I can't act all the time being happy when deep down the mate bond was torturing me. Though her love makes me feel better for my sore mood caused by my mate.

Days were passing too quick but I had frozen without moving forward in my life. In two days, my mate getting engaged to Pooja and in three week time, they planned to get married. Even though I try to be strong, I couldn't keep myself together. I got a mail to be present at the council tomorrow. And as I planned I spoke with Sezhiyan before five days. I still remember the event clearly.

^ Flashback ^

After the trip with Dhaya, I finished my training and mind linked Sezhiyan that I want to meet him. He asked me to come to his office.

"What is that you want to talk to me, Kavi?"

He asked me with a frown and concern.

"Alpha, I knew your love for me. And I promised myself to tell you everything about me. But yesterday, I didn't disclose my complete detail. And I didn't want to keep any more secrecy from you but this is about my personal life. So I thought it was enough to tell you to avoid unnecessary conflicts. But I want you to keep this as a secret. Because I decided about my life and I want you to respect my decision."

He looked at me calculatively and extended his hand to promise. Our palms met and he promised to keep it as a secret and he won't even disclose it to his mate. I smiled in gratitude and pulled my moonstone pendant over my t-shirt.

"After my grand parent's death, that witch was so grateful for them to give their own lives to save her. So Zarina offered to give me whatever I want within her power. From the memories that Grandpa has given me, I found many males not respecting the value of their mates. My mom's mate raped her and another male whom she trusted had tried to take advantage over her, even while his mate was also alive.

I have noticed the mates rejecting each other for silly reasons. So I asked her to break the bond I have within me to my mate. She denied it and told she could not do some sinful thing like that. Then I asked her to give me something which would hide my bond and I could make my mate feel the bond if I didn't have that thing. She was conflicted and afraid as she didn't want to do the sin of separating the mates. However, she gave me this moonstone pendant and told that my mate wouldn't recognise me till this pendant was with me but a simple touch would make him recognise me and I should keep my physical distance with him.

Her idea is wolves won't keep distance after finding their mate, but she has no idea how stubborn I am. I found that the idea isn't bad. So I accepted this pendant from Zarina."

I paused on seeing him getting angry.

"Are you out of mind, Kavi. What kind of crazy game is this? First, remove that thing from you. Mates are blessings, Kavi. You shouldn't do this. Remove it, now."

He yelled at me. But I could see how much he was concerned about me. I smiled sadly at him.

"Remember the promise, Sezhiyan. My mate is in our pack. I met him before two years at a rogue tournament. He came there with our Logan. My wolf wanted him instantly and I felt our bond getting alive. But he didn't recognise me. I wanted to know about him. But things happened and I kept the secret within me. After the war, I decided to tell him everything and to apologise for keeping him away all these days. My unfortunate time, he was in a hurry. He decided to go for another she-wolf. Yeah, Akhilan is my mate. But he is no different from my mom's mate. So please don't tell anyone about it. Let's see what destiny has for me."

There was a lot of emotions from Sezhiyan. He inhaled a deep breath with shock at first when I said that my mate belongs to our pack. His eyes showed recognition when I described him. He looked at me in pure torture when I confirmed his doubt and compare him to my mom's mate.

only because of his mother's

almost in requesting tone. I nodded my head

to be with me, he would have made his parents understand how important his mate is for him, Sezhiyan. They are werewolves too. And they are mates. So they would understand if he stood stubborn. But he didn't. He didn't fight for me. He gave up so easily. I am too easy for

sighed and

him, Sezhiyan. His every action would make me suspect him. We can't live a normal life. It was rather better to live alone, Sezhiyan. All I want is a peaceful life. Please understand me. I knew

my emotions. He sighed

will feel when they mate. It's pure torture, Kavi. And you could never get the life that could be only possible with one's mate. I can't even imagine replacing Mithra with someone else. How are you going to live

with

think of any other male. My wolf blocked me for a day. But she was always so supportive and understood

said to him with an exhausted sigh. He nodded

All I want is a happy life for you. He is a good man. He would give you a

it even necessary to reconsider my decision. I wasn't watching my steps and almost ran into Akhilan. I was breathless and

didn't

past him. But he stopped me blocking the way by extending his hand. He has a

walking like a dead person? I thought you would be back to cheerful Kavi after

me with a frown.

"You"

said it before I could

gained my mother's love again. You stop worrying about me

mouth was bitter after speaking to him like that. I could tell he was about to deny my words from his body language but the screeching voice of Pooja interrupted us.

engagement dress. Eww... Why are you talking to this bitch? I

to my surprise and she made me take a threatening step towards Pooja. I knew my eyes were shining

yourself. I don't have any restrictions from my human anymore. I won't hesitate even once to

mention. So I took the control back. She was looking at me

walked past them. But

End of the flashback

his fiancee or his mother, but I avoided him at all costs. Everyone started asking me why I was dull. I was trying my best to act normal but I couldn't help but go into a sad mood whenever I was alone. And the sleeplessness was evident with my dark circles and no cosmetics was enough to hide the redness in my eyes. I was going to my teddy's spot daily at the time of Sunset. I would lie there in my wolf form for hours. If only my

took me to hunt in our wolf form. Her wolf showered me with her love. Mukilan and Dhaya were busy with pack works because Sezhiyan had planned to

showed their love for me by constantly looking after me whenever they could. I started using my bike because Surya's mate goes to the same college as us. He would behave usually inside the class but the time we had together had considerably reduced. Also, I don't want to be the fifth wheel. And I

me to meet him immediately. I went to the office and found Vijayan, Beta of Blood warriors pack and Luna Shrini there. I gave the two a nod as a courtesy and smiled at Iniyan. Iniyan jumped on me and hugged me tightly. I quickly connected to

buddy, did you grow big

asked him happily. Iniyan looks a bit healthy than

Yes. Daddy and meanie Ilamaran were not at home. So Mommy feed me well but she saw

secrets but I could tell everyone heard it with

Now show Mommy you

ran

at me with gratitude and