Chapter Fifty–Four 

“Kiss me,” I said. 

“...What...?” 

After leaving home, I‘d headed straight to where I knew they would be. Somewhere I knew that I definitely shouldn‘t be. 

But there was no hesitation as I‘d confidently walked up and knocked on their door. And when Cai had answered, I‘d ignored his confusion and demanded the one thing I knew could make me feel better. 

Because if it felt anywhere near as good as the first time, then maybe it would be enough to make me forget for a moment that everything was falling to pieces around me. 

“Kiss me,” I repeated. 

His eyes were wide, stunned at my request, but he wasn‘t moving. I could see he was still in the same attire he‘d been in earlier; the formal clothes making his body somehow look even more fitted. 

I quietly sighed impatiently whilst his head tried to comprehend exactly what was happening. 

“Aria–.” 

However, I didn‘t wait for him to finish his sentence. It wasn‘t words I wanted right now... it was him. 

I walked up and pulled on the collar of his shirt until his face was within reach of my own. 

“Please, Cai...,” I whispered, as I looked up slowly from his lips to his eyes. 

He was so close now that it caused a shiver of anticipation to run through my body. I needed this, I needed him, and I could see in his eyes that he wanted me too. The tension between us was becoming so intense that it felt tangible. 1 

The cold night breeze swept around us and it only made the warmth coming from him even more inviting. I loosened the hand I had hooked onto his shirt and ran it all the way along his chest, feeling him under m y touch, until it rested on his broad shoulder. I wanted him closer, his body still feeling too far away

My heart jumped a little when I saw him finally lean in closer and place his hand on the side of my head, his thumb resting against my cheek tenderly. And instinctively, I closed my eyes as I moved towards him, preparing myself for what would happen next. 

But instead of feeling him against my lips, I felt him shift away... and kiss my cheek instead. 

“No,” he said quietly. “Not like this.” 

I snapped my eyes open to look at him. 

“No… no, please, I need this,” I said and grabbed onto him tighter. “Please, Cai... I want you.” 

He closed his eyes and looked pained, almost as if he was internally having a battle within himself. 

Aria–” 

“No, you said you wanted me,” I said, my voice becoming more frantic. “Why are you doing this now?” 

“Because I honestly don‘t know if it‘s me you want right now, or if it‘s just you finding an outlet for your grief.” 

I could feel as my cheeks began to burn in humiliation, my eyes tearing up, and instantly I dropped my 

side as if he‘d just stung me. His words left me embarrassed and hurt over his rejection, and... angry. Angry that everyone was choosing to disappoint me today of all days. 

Chaptei Hity Out 

that crap... I‘m sick of hearing people saying that

even stand to look at me today and yet somehow you‘re now on my doorstep begging for me. Excuse me if I‘m

what you wanted, right? You just wanted to sleep with me?” I argued.”

distance between us. I couldn‘t help but flinch

as a whole. Not... whoever the hell this is right now. And I honestly think that maybe, deep down, you do actually want me too... but the way you‘re acting right now just tells me

gritted my teeth. “There‘s nothing wrong with me...,”

can‘t even see it is

sighed, calming himself down.

he said. “I promise I‘ll be there for you, even if that’s just as a friend. But I have more self–respect than to sit back and let you use me because of the feelings I have for you. Because I do want you... and I honestly want nothing more than for you to tell me right now that I‘m wrong about all of this. But from what I can see, you need help, Aria, and I‘m happy to oblige... but not like that. Not if it‘s just

speak, to tell him he

and it‘s me you actually want. Or tell me that you want my help, and I‘ll help you.”

wasn‘t the sort of on the spot decision I had expected to deal with when coming here. I wasn‘t ready for that sort of pressure right

thought so,” he said quietly.

with this right now.

Cai called out to me. His expression changed to one of worry and I could feel he was about to chase after me, but I held up a hand to warn him to stay away.

where are you

around, walking off into the night away from him. There was no point in staying any longer. I was already at the point of feeling humiliated

me you‘re going

I kept walking not really knowing where I was going but I knew I needed to keep moving.

help it anymore, unable to hold it in. I screamed out into

most. I had needed Aleric to believe me, to take my side. I‘d needed my father to push for Thea‘s arrest, or at

thoughts out of

this was all Thea‘s fault. Everything had been fine before she‘d shown up. Myra would still be alive and I wouldn‘t be fighting with Aleric and my father. I wouldn‘t have to feel so

to crumble around me, signs of

my father weren‘t willing to do

Fuck it. 

towards the one place I could get my hands on somethingt o inflict as much pain to someone as I was currently

she used to kill Myra.

placed on me. It wasn‘t happy with my intention to defy the order given to me. I winced,

suddenly came rushing towards me as I fell, and I began to crawl even as the pain got worse; I was determined to keep going no matter the cost. It was as

too late

Saintess, and no order should be able to contain me. If I wanted to go kill Thea, then goddammit, I would go

like chains... and, instantly, I gasped with relief when the weight was lifted.

...I was free. 

I picked myself back up and continued on my journey, my new freedom only coercing me onwards faster. I kept going until, finally, I came to the building where the evidence was kept locked up. The silver knife would be in there I knew, guarded by at least one warrior, but I wasn‘t concerned. Given how little time had passed since Aleric‘s decision, I was fairly sure that, as far they probably knew, I was still a part of

my Beta heir rounds but it felt like I was seeing it in a completely new light given how dark it already was outside. The entire place felt too empty and quiet but I knew there would

up ahead. A room guarded by only one

greeted cautiously in a flat voice, approaching

as he saw me enter. “Beta heir?

asked me to pick something up. It‘s for the ongoing investigation.”

going to help with

Chesterbrity Fou! 

uncomfortable, and probably realised

until daylight hours. The warriors are Alpha ordered

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